i am very stressed now .
Who could understand my feelings ?
I don know what i can do .
what do you want me to do ?
you keep on doing case ?
nobody wants you to go in ,
but then why ? what do you want me to do then you will stop ?
i just realize that my life is a total disaster 
i am losing everyone that i love , one by one .
who will be with me till the very end ,
who will understand the feeling of waiting ?
Fuck man , seriously .
my head is gonna bust soon .

I am afraid to go to the hospital .
You guys always think that i am heartless and all .
who is me , who understand ,
who is going through everything with me ,
why do bad things come at one goal ?
why do i wished to the stars and it doesn't come true .
I don't want you to leave me , i don't want to see another person leaving my life .
i really hope you pull through .
i don't want to go through all the pain again .
Please be strong , i don't want to held on a cold hands anymore .
I don't want to see nurse bullying scene again ,
i am sorry , i never made you proud before .
All i give was disappointment ,
i always make you angry, sad , troubled ;
Please don't leave me , i cannot afford to lose anybody anymore .
Please .

Fuck my whole entire life .