i wanted it to rain as big , but it came small .
i wanted it to be small , it goes BIG -.-
Sister , its good that you pour everything out ,
i don't mean to keep it from you ,
i just don't want you to be hurt any more deeper .
love you miss you .
Tomorrow will be a better day , i pray hard man ,
Tomorrow there will be school again .
Goodness ,
i hope my test wouldn't be a problem D:
Sometimes i wonder am i the cause of everything ?
Why when things that are getting better ,
another part got worse ?
when will you understand .
Have you ever step in my point of view to see the things that i am facing ?
This thing is pulling me deeper and deeper .
it seems like a never ending hole that i am falling .
I really wished i will always just be a kid , a kid will do .
Carefree , nothing will seems to bother in my way .
am i too pamper ? i really wonder .
Is god testing me ? or just seeming play tricks on me .
my goodness , god damm it lars !
Fuck up life .
its seems so meaningless each day after another .
i know you , you , you , you will hate me .
but i cannot really do anything about it .
i tired my f best . but each time i climb ,
i would fall , fall deep . very deep .
i guess my retribution has befall me .
Give me some air .
