Hello people ;
very stressful manns , back on to the start of this new thingy ;
verhh worried for mira ; feel kind of useless today ;
can't do anything right ; the only thing that i was happy was all about irsyad & yokeyin ;
see them so happy , at least something useful is done today (:
bbut for mira , i was totally so damm stressful & sad about it ;
i hate wad mimi told me , i know that somethings can't be force ,
but i thought everyone was suppose to be given a chance ;
but instead , mira was hurt , guys are nasty !
but then girl love them becos they ware nasty ;
i dunno wad the hell had gone into me ;
feel like crying out aloud , but then do not want anyone to worried ;
so i just let fate decide ; who shall be lucky & happy ;
really do not want anything to happen in this june anymore =(

hais. verhh sad for me , i am like a stranger to him again ;
i tried my verhh best , but the result for the best was limited ;
he changed , i dunno , the person was the same , the venue was the same ,
but the feeling for him to me , was like so different ,
maybe i am used to be lucky but now , i am in damm shit luck ;
how i wished things will get better ,

even through i may be still a kid , but the things that i knew ;
was far than ue guys think , maybe ue may think that i am craping ,
but the truth is i am a grown up now ,
& the things that i think may be different;
but i definately got more experience than ue guys (:

i dunno are we in or not ,
look like its in , but the feeling was out ,
i know , i am crapping , some may understand ,
some may not , i kind of miss the past ,
i want everything to change ,
i want everyone to be happy , & i will be fine ,
i did not know why everytime i think of him ;
i will shed tears ; hais .
even through i may be strong ,
but things can be real stressful & sad too ;
i do shed tears , i do feel hurt ,
but no matter what ue do ,
things shall remain , let things have fate to decide ;
for me , i have got nothing to say !

hope mira can be more happy ,
hope irsyad can be more romantic ,
hope mimi can be more gentleman ;
hope yokeyin will last long ,
hope things will be fine ,
hope he will love me & dote me more (x
narhhs , maybe the last one will not happened again ;
hais , is fate playing us out ?
i don't know , i kind of feel useless now ;
maybe i am a fool to people yars ;

i am half- dead !