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NEW YEAR~

2012-01-24T04:53:00.000-08:00

Happy New year Once again ,
Yesterday was my baby boy 's birthday ,
but sad thing was i wasn't able to celebrate with him .
so i guess i could only wait till next year right ! :)
Yesterday was quite a disaster, Boring people, no gamble, boring place, and time actually were so slow !
Oh my, can you believe it !!!!!!!
the only good thing about yesterday was, i had a new watch , finally , my dad gave me! :)
hehe ! it cost 615. My first watch which cost over 400 plus.
wow!! SO happy ! ~
and also , we went to DIAN XIAO ER on Sunday, ate dinner which cost $248.
hmmmm, nice , there's shark fin , and abalone, wonder if the price was really right,
after dinner, we watched a movie, LONG ZHONG WU.
Damn funny, it's been a long time since we last watch movie together , except some cases at home for sure.
then we went to arcade and play , hmmm seems kiddy, but quite enjoyable. :)
it's been such a long time since i had such outing. :)

The gamble part, i wasn't as lucky as last year, this year i lost 10 plus to my second sister.
how Unlucky ! :(
hmmm, but never mind it's ok ! :) Long long one time ! ~

Need to go work tomorrow, sian sian sian !~
but my last day is on Saturday, which means my very last day with the kids is on Friday ><
awww, gonna treasure these times and moments :)
sure miss them one lot !

I hope to meet all my friends soon , seems like drifting, but i really hope everything will be the same again~

GOODBYE!~

A lot more to tell , just in time...

2012-01-21T02:02:00.000-08:00

Ok, first let's start off with ...
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! :)
oh my , i know New year's eve is tomorrow, but just advance you know.
Recently had been really busy, till i do not have enough sleep,
and pimples are popping out, and flu like water pipe.
well, who likes it anyway, just have to endure.

Next , I had bought all my new year clothes,
but seriously as i grow older, didn't even have to mood to shop or having any new year mood.
haha, and and and, sometimes i feel it's another day.
but still enjoy the HOLIDAYS GIVEN ! "_"

Yeah, will be more free in another week's time ,
as sad news i'm quitting my job and next saturday is my last day :(
But good news, I'm moving on to better education for myself.
Which makes my head goes round and round, it's called O Levels.
hmmm. i will try my very best though.

Saw baby boy few days ago,
brought Timothy Along,
well they both sure do have a lot to catch up :)
It's a good visit! :)
I miss him every single day,
few days later will be his 20th birthday,
how old he could be, and i'm 19 !
well well, old already, lagi boring.
so need to cherish all the time.

the above photos, aren't there dearly to you ~
well they are my treasures . :)
Ok, enjoy, will blog soon soon ! :)

Another day

2011-12-16T04:30:00.000-08:00

Hey there.
Gosh, have not been updating recently,
i mean like for 3 days ?
because I'm working. damn.
very very busy !
haven't had time to meet my friends & Boyfriend !:(
saddening !
Have alot of new children recently. All of them are just as cute, but naughty at the same time.
tomorrow gonna have parents meeting.
Gosh, i'm so nervous,
in the past, I'm the one having parents meeting and all in primary or secondary school !
now, I'm conducting parents meeting with my babies !
wow, what a great change i had made.
hopefully, i will do it !

Yeah, no more work stuff !
Some pictures ?

&&& my handsome baby love :)
Ain't he adorable?
Cannot let him sees i praising him , His soul will definitely fly !
His skin is so thick that he won't be shy :)
But he's the best man, i ever had in my life :0
I love him more each day. And now hopefully we would pass the test between us, conquering all problems we had and of course last till infinity. :) haha !

K now, got to do other things now. :)
Goodbye all !

Hongkong part 2

2011-12-13T07:51:00.000-08:00

Okay, Something wrong with the upload.
Hmmmm. This shall be Disney part 1 :) haha !
Hmmmm/// don't know what happened too!. :( sad !
My skin everything very itchy sia. Arghhh! Hopefully tomorrow will be over ! .
Gonna get new table and re-renovate my room soon ! Need so many new things.
NEW YEAR NEW THINGS :) = Money $$ :(
Hmmmm/ going for School interview soon, hopefully i could get in that school.
and i swear i will fucking study hard this time round.
regretted not studying hard in secondary school, now i have to start afresh and restart.
but better than nothing huh.
My baby boy was tranfered to TMPS. Hmmm. Hopefully he will Jiayou and focus on his studies.
He and i will work hard together for our future ^^ hehe!
Hopefully it will work ! :)

; Baby, just to let you know, you are always my everything.

When you feel like giving up think of me, I'm outside waiting for you.

when you feel stupid, remember me, cause I'm more stupid than u .

Don't feel useless and down, cause in my heart you are more than perfect ,

more than enough for me .

I love you too !

HONGKONG!

2011-12-12T09:04:00.000-08:00

First< checking In. Don't be deceived by the Screen up there.
I NEVER SAT BUSINESS CLASS! >< SO SAD ! BUT TRUE!

WHEN I REACH HONGKONG ! The Airport station!
It was super big! Easily could get lost!

Awaiting for the stupid guide, Supposed to Fetch us to Hotel, yet you see , we were waiting. Oh well!
Stupid service, we were cheated by the Singapore (APPLEHOLIDAYS)
Don't go there please, that cheater, made us spent a bombbbb!

Bad Hotel, Even the paper sucks!

My sister even wants to tear it apart!
Look how terrible it was. Oh my!

Opposite is our lousy hotel, it was supposed to be 5 star, See how badly we were cheated.
Oh my, you won't wanna know what happened next, Too embarrassing !

My dinner for the night ! ^^

LOOK! Ours were GUARDIAN! they have mannings! SO COOL RIGHT !

On bus !

Waiting for cable car, because it's saturday, extremely alot of people!
so we roughly queue about 45 mins. SO LONG@~

MY MUMMY AND I! SO SWEET RIGHT !
She loon younger than my sister.
Above all , She's the coolest and cutest mum that i HAVE ! Oh well.
there's always one great mum in everyone's eye, which is your own mum!
MINE Is Cute ! ^^

Three of us have different faces, don't be surprised,
WE SHARE THE SAME BLOOD.
THEY ARE MY SISTERS ^^ haha!
Different taste, Different point of view, Different personality , Different character.
But still we are siblings :) we LOVE SHOPPING @ EVERYWHERE, SALES , REASONABLE PRICE, GOOD FOOD!

Ticket for cable car !

Look at the amount of people after we queue for 30 mins!!!!
AMAZED?

Enjoy for time being!

Isn't all of these beautiful !

One of the attractions in Hongkong. ^^

The Picture below is damn nice and rare to see.
It's take time strength and faith to climb up those steps.
i didn't because i know i have to walk around 4 streets for the rest of the day.
So i need to save strength,
and i wasn't very fa bian ( not very nice to pray as I'm having ~~~)

This is nicer than the BREAKFAST BUFFET In THE HOTEL< NICER THAN THE AIRPORT FOOD< NICER THAN CRYSTALJADE ! DAMN!

EXPRESS TRAIN, SO NICE RIGHT ! Comfortable ! ^^

Shall continue DISNEY POST TOMORROW. THOSE PICTURES ABOVES WAS ONLY day 2 .
Amazing huh!
I walk for so long till my legs are so numb and painful ! :(
gosh! , i used 2 hours to post this, please enjoy ! ^^
It's Hongkong Part 1 !~

2011-12-07T04:42:00.000-08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLOOOOO!
I'm Going to Hongkong tomorrow ! YES !
It's like a finally can ! OMGOMG !

ME GONNA MISS THE ABOVE GIRLS,MY BELOVED BABY !

&&& MY CUTE FRIENDS SUCH AS BFF AND GUANG TOU LAO !

Oh my , i talk as if I'm going for 5 years , but only 5 days la :p
hehe , nevermind, just don't mind me ok
I'm just excited that's all :)

Work ended. So tired today.
those chidren still don't believe me when i told them i'm going hongkong tomorrow.
they still say meet me there, sit aeroplane together.
oh my, THEY DON"T BELIEVE THEIR TEACHER. HOW SAD ! :(

GONNA PACK MY THINGS NOW.
SHALL BLOG WHEN I'm BACK !
OH SO GONNA MISS YOU BLOGIE !
BABY , You are never replaced !
FLYING KISS ! Muacks !

Much Better Than Ever

2011-12-04T00:56:00.000-08:00

Hello People.
Such a long long time since i last post yar.
Talking about life, Those past few post earlier on , erm, just ignore them.
Those sentimental stuffs, Just let it ~~past~~.
It's gonna be a new year, who wants to remember about those bad things right ,
So started like, Decided to make this blog alive again,
because i find it such a waste if i were to let it sleep just like that.
so I re edited the whole blog, look so new now :)
Oh well, gonna start my O levels soon,
yeah , Most of you will be like HUH, WHAT WHY.
Firstly, i need this certs to continue a better PAID job. WHICH IS THE PICTURE ABOVE.
I love the kids, but i need to feed myself too right, i mean for the sake for mine and my "husband" 's Future.
I really have to make it.
So Cheers for me yeah . HOORAY !
Next thing, I'm going to HongKong in like 4 days.
wow! Who could have knew. Yeah, SHOPPING.
I don't really shop much in Singapore.
First, I'm not rich.
Second, My bf and Mum Would KILL me, if i were to SPEND SO MUCH MONEY ( Especially my BF)
Third, i feel that there is no need to keep on shop and shop and shop.
YES< i know, I'm a girl, supposed to be SHOPPING QUEEN or something.
But I have no money ! ^^ Having a simple life, makes you happy :)

Shall End here for now, Gonna bath now.
The weather sucks recently. Raining heavily, Hopefully Singapore would not have flood. *TOUCHWOOD*
Goodbye for now !
See you soon ! Tada ! <3

2011-08-19T09:15:00.000-07:00

Hi readers,
have been two months since i last update .
Life seem great but not as good as you can imagine .
Don't even know what to do for the next step at times .
You may be lost , but you don't know where to start or end .
You are confused yet you want to be clear of what you are doing .
You don't want to surrender to reality , that's why you keep telling yourself to keep moving on .
that's what i'm feeling now .

Just got a little mix feeling of what i'm going to do next .
I miss those times , but yet , i can't do the things i want to right now .
i have to brain wash myself at times in order not to feel rejected .
You may laugh for all you want , but you will be telling yourself ,
"are you really as happy ?"
I'm not .

Felt as if i fail through everything although all of you may think i have everything .
I always thought i have many things ,
end up , in the very end , i really lost to reality .
I really want you back in my life at times ,
but pride told me no , cause my answer from you will be dissapointing ,
or maybe history will repeat again,
i don't want the same kind of hurt ,
but my heart told me , i should give it a try again .
Without you , yes life always goes on ,
like not bothering me ,
but dreams that i'm having tells me , i really miss you .
yet i have to tell myself , no , you are gone already .
neither i think you want to be back with all of us right ...
Am i avoiding ? i don't know either .
I guess i wasn't a good sister after all .

I always don't have this kind of feeling ,
but in the end , i think i'm in fault after all .
If it wasn't for me , you will still be with us .
if only i had one chance , i will just keep my mouth shut .
maybe you still have friends or maybe sisters with you .

__________________________________________________

I really hope i can be a good girlfriend of yours .
i'm really trying my very best .
People may think it's so easy to wait .
but to me , it's more than my life .
I'm not saying this because my feelings for you had faded ,
no , not a singe bit is gone . i still love you as much as i did . always .
but i just hope i could try better , not to miss you .
i don't want to make myself so miserable .
everyone thinks i'm great , blah blahblah .
but they never knew the story behind it either .
it's not as easy as all of you think .
but still life still goes on ,
yes i'm still waiting .
i really miss you baby , always have been .
love you , since then till the end .

________________________________________

I can't help anyone at all ,
problems , i wished i could be there always ,
but still , there is distances in everything i do .
i can't always be the superwoman ,
i need somebody to be there after all .
but still , i have to tolerate my own problems ,
i'm sorry for some people out there , i mean my close buddies and all ,
i can't be there . Really am .
_________________________________________

Life isn't easy anymore .
the more you grown , mature ,
the more problems you will tend to face .
Guess what i have to do , is only to move on .....

2011-06-14T13:05:00.000-07:00

Hello Readers :)
Things is alright now ^^
hopefully it will be like as long as possible :)
heehees . Oh i miss my beloved baby now :)
have been talking about him almost everyday ,
yeah , i know you guys are getting bored , but please bear with me la huh ^^
cause put yourself in my shoes ,
if only i could see him , i won't be writing about him everytime when i post :) haha .
I KNOW I KNOW :) I'm a goodgirlfriend ^^
yeah , keep your thoughts to yourself .
This love is tough , but i believe every bitterness in life , there will be beautiful story behind it ,
and happily ever after ending with it :)
heehees , so make your life worth while :)

Loves my Cliques; my sisters :) BFF :) Guang tou , Mr :) heehees :)
Nights <3
&& my dearest baby :)

2011-06-06T11:05:00.000-07:00

Looking at those pictures making me having those flashbacks .
How much we been through , how much hard and happy times .
We all stand the same place , maybe as time goes , our thinking change .
being sensitive , being annoyed , quarrel over small things . Insulting etc .
i used to think we can get over it fast .
But the more unhappiness being kept , is when small things became big .
You may say keeping quiet is stupid ,
but have you ever thought why do people keep quiet ?
it does not mean that people fear you , but it's because they just wanna pretend nothing is wrong .
maybe that's what we called avoiding problems .
not trying to be a saint over here .
But there is no other place for me to express it .
No words could actually describe my feelings .
Being hurt alone is better than hurting people .
Look , who is the one being hurt now ?
Sigh , what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you .
Just hope my eyes could be deceiving , but my sense aren't .
Hopefully the next time i post , things will go back the way it is .
I guess , we really need to round table and talk , think ahead .

2011-06-06T02:39:00.000-07:00

Hi people .
Life has been hard for me recently .
but still i have My cliques with me :)
Somethings are meant to be said , but somethings are not .
But Doesn't mean i don't say means I don't know or stupid .
Yes you are right , I'm not stupid .
but still you are treating as through i lost my senses .

It's truth that sometimes , you know nothing than to know everything .

Oh , i miss baby now .
If only you were here , You will tell me what to do .
Maybe i was to rely on you the past .
that's why , everytime I'm in shit , i will always think of you .
I miss you dearly !
Loves . <3

2011-05-26T01:32:00.000-07:00

Hi Everyone ,
It's been long since i update ,
have been real busy with my another blog .
:) heehees . More secrets to be shared .
but not known to all .
I guess the person that know i am writing about her the previous post ,
did not make the attempt to call either .
So , i guess the friendship just ended over there .
Pathetic huh , life life , what can we expect .

Had alot of thing crop up recently .
Yup , for some people that is a clique to me , knows I'm starting school .
yeah , and for those who don't know , you knew it now .
:) Yup , gonna go school later .
surrounded with aunties , oh gosh .
I gonna buy snack there and eat .
school life , need sometime to get used to it . :)
But I'm really gonna work hard this time round .

As for work , I think when i stabilized my studies and time ,
i will find other more highly paid job ,
if not , it's not enough for my monthly spend and savings .
^^

Had alot of fun with my cliques nowadays ,
make me realized , we are all grown ups now ,
few years down the road , we gonna be aunties and uncles ,
or even being mother or father ,
life , is really unpredictable .
So , every sec , every min , we need to treasure it .

One thing , I love it alot ,

" When you tried you best , Giving it your best shot ,

Don't be sad or troubled when it fails ,

cause as long as you tried your best , don't regret anymore ."

Treasure and cherish it when you have it , Because , Once it's gone , It's gone forever "

goodbye readers , All the best in all things you do .
Love ya , & Take care :)

2011-05-04T12:10:00.000-07:00

Today I post this .
Just to send a little message to a person and that person will fully understands what i mean .

Looking back , It will be a waste .
But moving on , i find something missing through .
I used to think everyone around me , i understands them fully .
But till a few incidents happened , i realized I'm wrong .
People change , leave and forgot .
But the ones that had been left , will always remember .
You think that we really feel good ?
Do you know we are suffering double much as what you are ?
You don't right ?
I'm very disappointed in you .
Where is all the love and care we used to shared?
Where did all the heart to heart talk went to ?
There are somethings you might never understand why we did it .
But for some points i believe you do .
I don't believe you are the mastermind to everything ,
But there are somethings , i believe you need to admit you are wrong .
I mean , i believe there are something i did wrong ,
that's why , you have been resorting ways to make me suffer .
I know , i don't blame you either .
One thing i can tell you now is , I only Love AhmadGhuzaili ,
This you also know , Why are you telling different stories when you know it isn't true ?
Why , Do you know when i know it , how heartbroken i was ?
Do you know i went all the way to there , get my heart so shattered ,
you know you saw , yet you pretend nothing is wrong , ignoring me all this ?
I send you a text message when i didn't even do anything wrong to you ,
and you didn't reply , You know the pain that i am having ?
No , you don't , you just think that I'm enjoying myself .
I'm sure you know what i did , after all those things happen .
yet , You add salt and pepper to the things i didn't do .
You know how important is she to me , yet ?
I asked you before , tell me honestly if you dislike me and all ,
Your reply was , " seriously don't have ."
I didn't even realized you have so much hatred in me .
So much . Do you know we could amend all this earlier , if you told me that early ?
You think I'm happy doing all this ?
I can tell you now , I'm not . Not at all .
The min you removed me from _____ , Do you know how my heart breaks ,
I actually cried for that stupid thing ,
but for you ? I don't think so .
All your mind was thinking was , since we aren't that close , why still bother ? Right ?
I hit it .

Just admit that you changed . Look yourself a year ago and now .
Please reflect , You think i like to see you all alone >
You really think i like .
You even forget about her birthday . when we actually thought you would at least text her or call her .
But in the end , you did not .
Do you know , how sad the birthday girl was ?
the one that you hate was me , why must you affect them ?
They did nothing wrong .
Come to me if you want , I will be waiting .

I know you will be seeing this sooner or later ,
I'll be waiting for your call . Or even yours .
^^ , my number didn't change .

Life C:

2011-04-20T09:38:00.000-07:00

Hi people ,
Today i'm here to talk about my life ^^ i mean like now .
Haha , Recently there is alot of things happening all around me .
I lost my love , I lost one brother , i lost one good friend , I Nearly lost my good sister too .
hmmm , but at least i didn't lose everyone , that has been around me bringing me laughter and joy ^^
Simple life that i always wanted .

I lost my love , but still if we both endure this time , treat it as a test , i believe , we will be those loving ones always like before ^^
I miss him , i really do . But still i can't carry on my life doing nothing while waiting for him to be out .
I 'm prepared , we made deals with each other , what are we going to do in future and all , this is what Love is all about isn't it ^^ Haha . I always love him <3

the rest three person , i don't wished to say , cause i see no point .
^^ at least i proved my innocence . there is nothing i wanna do .
I already said , what comes around goes around ,
as long as i did nothing wrong , there is nothing i need to fear about .
Including that one and only thing that causes all this shit .
i cleared all of them . I pass the test , i really did ^^

And now I am happy with the life i'm leading .
Visiting Boyfriend , going to his house do things , have time spent with all my beloved friends , do what is right , when its time to enjoy ; enjoy , nice job , with funny people over there , time pass fast ^^ Going out together and all . WOW . This kind of life , who doesn't want it right . Relax relax all . No problems , no troubles .
Not that hard .

Sometimes you fight for things too much , your ending won't be happy .
Sometimes you climb up high , you will realize you are all alone and left nothing .
Lonely huh . I know how you feel , cause i been through it .
let it go then , Life is short , thus enjoy it .

Love you baby , Love you friends . Love my life ^^V

So disapointing .

2011-04-16T10:58:00.000-07:00

Hello People , Life has been hard .
Gonna start earning Big money soon .
Keep myself busy & pack .
Work Study Work Study ENJOY ^^
The news wasn't that pleasant but still i accepted it already ^^
So people who have been asking me to stay strong , thanks ,
but always remember , i am stronger than anyone of you could even think of .

I felt disappointed in you seriously .

You said i changed , but did you reflect on yourself ,

please don't blame me for assuming , but look at the later on thing ,

I start to show concern for you , i know you can feel it .

but why aren't you replying my msg and all ? Just tell me that i am annoying , and i will fuck off .

Its not like i didn't tell you before . you know me well enough .

i won't bug you , but seriously , don't you think that you have changed ?

For goodness sake , You always say you sayang and love me.

but now you are ignoring me . GREAT ! WOW . PERFECT !

You didn't even text or call me to ask how am i , when i needed YOU so badly yesterday .

~~Not a single concern from you .~~

Compare yourself and the past , How much difference you really change , even I can feel it now .

can't you ? Why ?

I bet you forgotten about me having night class & me Asking you to fetch me ?

& you coming to pick me ?

Sigh , You are always important to me , but me ? Only when you need me then you text me ,

if not just throw me aside and enjoy ?

I can't help to think this way , you know ?

You don't know right ? Now i really understand where i stand in your heart , or maybe , just maybe ,

I already slowly fade or doesn't exist in your heart anymore .

You left me so FUCKING speechless .

I don't know you anymore . Not anymore .

Hey Baby , Oh great , i missing you so badly now ,

How i wish your shoulder is here , so i could need on .

Where were you , superman , Gosh I missing you .

Come on , make a funny face , create jokes for me NOW .

I love you honey .

2011-04-02T11:12:00.000-07:00

Hello People . Above there are my Beloveds ^^
HAHA , They always make my day ^^ still got alot but then don't have their photos .
Awwwwww ^^ haha ! All i can say is thanks for always being there for me .
Always the first to notice when i am down ^^
Thanks ^^ I don't only love Ahmad Ghuzaili ^^ haha !
See i have Heart okays ^^
Heehess , i guess how lucky i am to have all of them appeared in my life ^^
So what we are kampong , at least we have one heart together ^^
Still got Lao pa , M.R & Soney .
Many more including the most stupidest shortest girl i have ever seen ^^
And not forgetting a Somebody too^^
& last But not least , Ahmad Ghuzaili <3

2011-03-29T12:24:00.000-07:00

Hi , Can't sleep , thats why i am here to post .
don't know what to post recently ,
i mean , who will want to know about where i go and what i do and all .
its so ridiculous right .
I find life very boring , i mean i find myself getting up and next , i don't know what to do .
Is like i am full of plans everytime when i get up but now , i just have to wait till everyone is up .
Night life huh . Seriously , this is what life is .

Time passes , PEOPLE changes .
We got to accept the fact of this ,
no matter how we tried to hide it , the matter of fact is always there .
Whether you guys notice or not , this is what the rest of us felt .
You guys are no longer the same as we known before .
There is like no love , no care anymore between us .
No ways to amend it , No ways to cover it .
Even strangers tells me too .
What do you guys think i can do , to make it better ?
Or do i even have the chance to tell you how you guys really change .
Unexpected huh , the correct hit , correct saying , the correct conjecture of what people say .
Is what that is happening now .
Believe or not , Just mark my words .

& My dear baby ,
I am missing you so much , You seem like the pillar of my life .
I know everything you do , mostly is for my own good .
I have been trying hard to be good either .
But you know good things don't always come to the end ,
i just hope everything will keep in the way before you left .
& history wouldn't playback and time would fly fast ,
& we could be together as long as infinity ^^
Kick off bad habits , try my best !
I love you , baby <3

Day 5 morning ^^

2011-03-28T17:05:00.000-07:00

Hello People ^^
Yup , some of you might wonder when am i up so early today .
wellwell because i need to take things from stupid AK that wasted my time ,,
& now i have to wake up SO early for it .
Hopefully there is something for me to do at afternoon ...
gonna go prepare by now ^^

hey baby , what could you be doing ?

eating ? bathing ? master ? ^^

hmmm i just hope you would be fine ,

i know you will reply " what could happen " blah blah .

haha ! I miss you dear !

I know you miss me deep too .

so Lets endure and get over it ^^

& we can live happily every after ^^ hahaha !

Love you baby !<3

2011-03-24T09:23:00.000-07:00

Hello people , Here to post through .
Looking at those idiots playing Lan ,
Soon tomorrow , days won't be as happy as now already . \saddening/ through ,
but i believe just one fine day , it will be back again .
I 'm here to love , and be here for you again :)
I won't cry through , i will stay as strong as now .
While waiting , gonna study real hard , create my own future , while waiting for you :)
Deep inside , there will always be you .
Love you hard . Miss you hardcore .
Love me like , i'm a hot ride , Baby . ^^
Stupid man :D

Why Are Things Getting more and more out of hand .

2011-03-21T11:52:00.000-07:00

Hi ,
What is really happening to the world ?
Problems and problems everyday , Don't you people realize , its very tiring of life goes on this way ,
better route don't want to choose , choose those kind got stone one ,
people sacrificing for you guys , for your mistake ,
don't you think its very unfair for the innocence 's ?
Are you guys brainless or retarded sia .
i really don't understand what are you guys up in your sleeves ?
Fun ? Thrill ? Feeling Shiok ? Feeling Powerful ?
No i seriously think that you guys are just being morons and acting some bug stuff over there .
People walk pass pui saliva on you all , i don't even think that is strange at all .
Now the world is about money , the more money you have , the more you talk nevermind .
no money , no talk .

I just know that , life is still life ,
Whether you like it or not , it still moves on ,
Whatever you do , there will be consequences .
The older you grow , the more stress you will tend to obtain .
My life isn't happy at all , but still i am moving on ,
so what , doesn't mean that i am unhappy , i can do whatever i like what .
This is Singapore , Rule and regulations , still carry on ,
whether you like it or not , still have to obey it .

No matter what kind of situation you are stuck it ,
whether how much you hated it , how much you tends to object , how much you wished you could tear it apart , Life still goes on , People wouldn't care who are you .
as long as you are a human , you need to do what you are supposed to .
Life , Life . Harder than being said .
Harder than what it really feels like.
Its even more harder when you are facing it .
Like now .

2011-03-12T10:31:00.000-08:00

Hello People .
Have Been real busy this feel days .
Oh my ! Finally i could rest well .
Pimples have been popping out .
:( sad case !

Baby , if you can looking at this ,
please do not get shocked .
I really can't bear to let you go .
i felt that i have been really used to your presence already .
What am i gonna do when you are gone .

nobody to make me laugh within seconds ,

nobody to walk me home ,

nobody to text me night ,

nobody to kiss me goodbye .

nobody to talk to me about life , about us ,

nobody to say that i am sososososo cute :( Awwwwww

Sigh , but i promised you to save money and make my life more useful for sure .
i don't want to get nag even after you are out :p
i know you will be saying you didn't want to go in too .
But don't give up okay , we still have great future for us to create ,
I still wanna watch movie with you .
and i could even celebrate my 19th birthday with you too .
hahahahha ! I Would miss you bi . :(
You and I , never knew why we love each other huh . :)
But one thing i know , i am cuter than you ^^"V Don smile la :D

I love you .

Love You Yesterday , Love You Still ,

Always Have , Always Will .

Ahmad Ghuzaili <3

2011-03-06T09:12:00.000-08:00

Hello , i know i haven't been updating recently .
Have been real busy , finally done with all those busy busy stuff .
And now , Whahahahahs :D Great !
Have been enjoying myself recently . Look at the above pictures , you will know how happy am i now .
Haha . This is the kind of simple life i am leading right now :)
I don't need powers like some people out there needed Like Hell .
What for i mean , isn't happy the thing that you wanted for life ?
Why make life so difficult then .
Simple ? Happy ? Real True Friends ? Beloved Family ?
This are the important play in your life .
Look back at times , and see how much people you have hurt ,
Think about benefits . Stupid idiots with no brain .
My , i pity those out there seriously .

Sweetheart , If you are looking at my blog .
Cheer up Okay :) Always remember i will always be here for you :)
Don't think too much , things will be abit better , in time .
Love you many many :)

& thanks bi .
I realized you have always there for me when i needed you nowadays ,
I am not saying you are not good in the past ,
You are good , but now you are way better :) more than perfect in my eyes .
You are Oh So Cute :) heehees .
I didn't put poison in you .
Thanks , Love you ! ^^"V

Are we meant to be ?

2011-02-26T09:38:00.000-08:00

I don't know how to react or what to say anymore .

I have been putting positive thoughts in my mind .

But sometimes , the negative part is always pushing it behind.

So What should i really do right now ?

If you wanted me to give up , i can't .

Unless you showed up , i would know you are better than me .

I can't lose to an unknown , cause he is everything to me .

Whether is it real or not , unless you showed up ,

if not it will never end .

Day After Day , Time pass away ,

I realize , the time that i have is fading away .

i can't catch it back , all i can do , is try to cherish as fast as i could .

I can't catch up with you at times ,

i don't even know how to catch you when you fall .

What a good girlfriend i can be huh .

I can't read your mind at times ,

Maybe i don't understand you well .

But sometimes , all i wanted was to hold on tight .

I really don't wished to be a glue ,

but maybe keeping a distance is what you need .

I am sorry , you are walking too fast and i can't catch up .

i might be stressing you too hard huh .

I guess i just have to do what i am supposed to .

I really wished . Very hard .

有時候,我會覺得我配不你.

你可以說我想了很多,

但你和我總有注意這個問題，不是嗎？

2011-02-22T08:50:00.000-08:00

Hello People , haven't been blogging for long huh :)
been real busy with working , friends ,Sisters and Boyfriend :)
So tired , haven't been sleeping until shiok , for a long long long time .
Gonna plan for my future very soon . Cause attachment is going to end ,
i don't want to waste my time , slacking around every afternoon till midnight , Everyday .
There are so many things i wanna do .

& baby , if you are reading this ,\
Please call me when you are awake :)
I love you allright ,
Always Have , Always Will :) Heehees :D

My Sweetheart & Gary is gonna get cut ,
so gonna miss her :( Hopefully she could pui until she kena cut one week uh :(
Love love love :)

2011-01-14T11:11:00.000-08:00

Till now i guess , you never understand .

你不知道的事.你不知道我为什么离开你,你不知道我为什么狠下心,多的是你不知道的事,对不起我却没捉紧你.

Maybe i push too hard .

Its was all my fault from the start . I guess , the problem always lies on me :) How i wished something could enlighten me for now . But still i can't find the holding pillar of my life :) Nah , don't worry , i kind of getting used to this already :)

Just wanna say , i am sorry to cause any hurt to my love ones .

& it wouldn't repeat anymore .

Gonna work harder than the rest , cause i am just gonna be some kind of blind person walking down the streets . With no goals and aims for the rest of the journey , cause i killed all my dreams and hopes , being a billionaire > i could just dream for the next next life . :D I need to give up on studies already , thats what the only choice i am left for huh . Guess i will walk the route i am supposed to . And not objecting what YOU think is best for me :)

Goodnight , sweet dreams :)

2011-01-13T08:40:00.000-08:00

Sometimes , i felt different .
I wanted some peace , how i wished i could live at the island with no technology ,
Only some scenery for me to enjoy and stay .
How nice could it be .
Sometimes when people try so hard but getting nothing at the very end ,
Makes people so tired that they feel like giving up .
Each time i thought i am over it , but still i guess it never ends .
Thats what life could be all about huh ?
I felt that you never really understand me in the first place .
Standing too much in people's view can be tiring too .
i am tired already , So sick and tired huh .
How i really wished , its the end of the world .
Who else would be the last standing with me .
It may appear nicely pack and all , who know its just rotten apples .
For me , i tried changing , always did .
But i guess , what i did , was never enough , That may why , i never get what i deserved huh .
Some people only treat me like a substitute , i guess some may know who you are la .
No need to say more .
Some would just take me for granted , yups cause its free , isn't it .
Sigh , Deep down . .

2011-01-10T18:10:00.000-08:00

Sometimes , when you tends to put hope in it , the more disappointment you tends to feel .
I know i am a attitude problem fucker , i am heartless . my heart is made of stone ,
from what you guys see , whatever . Neither do i give a damm about it to you guys .
When people were being nice to you , you guys took advantage of it ,
I finally know the feeling of being replaced .
SO obvious can . You know yourself la huh , no need me to say so much .
I will never help you , ever again .
Fuck it .
This is what happens in the end , when people get softhearted , & YOU will start climbing up , leave a poo poo , for me to clear ? Dream on , Continue dreaming ..

For this instance , i really feel like giving up .
Neither anyone will understand what i am feeling now .
whatever , be it , if you think its my fault , so be it .
Cause in the very end , i am still an attitude problem fucker .
:)

2010-12-27T06:01:00.000-08:00

Hi ,
I realize , some people would rather believe lies than the truth ,
maybe because the truth is painful or uglier but the matter of fact , who would rather stay in the dark forever ?
You ? Nah , don't think so right :)
Some people would rather believe to those sweet stuff and being make used , Why ?
cause sweeter stuff are better off for listening ? or maybe , after sweet , things turn sour ?
Nah , maybe in time , things will tell ,
whether who is better , soon the truth would be out .
Karma will hit bad those bad kids , don't they ?
I learn a sentence at City Harvest Church , the other day .
Be it the most worse mistake that the other has done you wrong , You will still have to forgive .
Forgive is the best thing , yo would have done in your life .
God would love you for that & i am sure when you yourself did something wrong , you would seek for forgiveness too , i learn to step myself in others shoes and think for them ,
whether did they think for me , it doesn't matter ,
cause when you know what is right , do it , don't regret , live it :)
Things will get better in time , i believe :)

& for you , dearest baby ,
i believe , you will be fine :)

2010-12-25T07:49:00.000-08:00

I really wonder , some people eat damm full nothing to do .
Even their own brother's did the wrong thing , they still think that they did the correct one .
If me , i confirm feel damm paiseh one lo . Say don't want find trouble already ,
Again And Again , they are still against the same person ,
I still remember a few months back , I said their sistership is like shit ,
they replied , asking me to use my sistership to wipe my backside .
& now , look at what i said and reflect .
Your sisters are one by one leaving , and mine , are still here .
Laughs , whether who is looking at this , you jolly know clearly .
You don't like people to do the same thing you are doing ,
why bother trying in the first place ? You don't like the treatment , people give ,
why are you giving that kind of treatment to others ? WHY ? Too free ?
Or you guys are too Gangster already , Don''t forget , one hill is always taller then the other .
Think about it .

A.G :) <3

2010-12-23T08:36:00.000-08:00

I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu !

So BADLY !

2010-12-21T06:09:00.000-08:00

Hell-o ,
Lately i have been busy , i gonna be more busier when days get longer .
Gonna start work very soon , Finally finish ITE :) Yeah , Finish study and all .
Realized Study was a very important and big part of our life .
I used to think that , faster finish study the better , now i am missing beatty so much .
Feel like re taking my N levels , get a better grade , but now saying , its too late .
So I have decided to move on to higher nitec , and take private O .
People may think how am i gonna cope , If there is a will , there will be ways :)
I wanna earn big money in time , Not having a cert now , is equals to nothing in future .
You may think faster finish find a part time job , End .
But think about it , imagine 10 years down the road , you are earning the same amount of income you are having now , 1000 plus per month , is never enough .
So people , please study hard ! :)
Goodluck for your N , Bff :) You can do it :)
&&& Sisters , lets work hard for a better future , Always remember our dream okays :)
Different colours of SHOWCASE :) * Hint Hint* :)
haha , Love you all !

Miss You Miss You !
<3 Z

Thanks god i found you .

2010-12-09T07:19:00.001-08:00

Thank God , I found you . <3

Maybe i am a coward , thats why .

2010-12-05T07:54:00.000-08:00

Mix-ed Feelings / Terrified .

2010-11-27T10:41:00.000-08:00

Hi LADIES AND GENTLEMEN :)

Have been going all around Singapore today , 

so windy , how i wished Singapore could snow . Awww & not rain  ! 

Today i have another thing to say , Please people , don't feel bored . 

but if you really do , you can don't read :) But if you read , please tag , and tell me the moral of the story :)

Thanks ! 

I realized the more gentle and nice you tend to be , 

people will tends to eat you up , or swallow you down . 

Nah , Some people outside would scold me behind my back , 

You see , i really don't care :) 

Be it whether you are Thunder , lighting , Scarface , social escort, fat prostitute, or whatever . 

I really don't care , cause the mouth was really yours , fingers are yours too . 

I know now you are thinking i am trying to bride people sympathy , Whatever . 

i also don't care , You want to find me trouble , you think i really give a damm ? 

Is not that i didn't try to save that friendship , i did , 

and nothing benefit me too , cause i don't feel that i am in the wrong , 

why must i ? but i still did . 

you think i am a friend snatcher ? Think about your own attitude , reflect , 

& if you really an angel , they wouldn't leave you . 

I didn't steal , you think about the past , use that friend snatcher thing , say in front of the mirror , 

Think , did i even say a think about you ? even you done me wrong plenty of times ? 

You made used me , back stab me , take me as a Spare Tyre ?

Took all my friends , wrote the broke up letter and pretend that is my ex bf gave to me ? 

scold me a dog using his name ? 

Look , 

Did i even utter a word ? I still kept quiet & treat you like a good friend .

End up , now this is the shit i get for return ? 

Nah never mind , Like what others say , Karma is a bitch . 

Whatever you are doing , God will be looking :) 

I felt peace at the moment , Cause all this things have been kept with me for years , 

doesn't mean i don't say , means i forgotten . 

Forgive and forget , if i can do that , i really wonder why can't you let go ?

Does being angry makes you live longer ? Being happy , enjoying , is the main theme of life . 

You don't usually do good things and want something good in return ba . 

May God Bless You . 

For the other you , I really wonder since when did i ever talk to you , 

maybe in two years ago , but now , don't talk as if you know everything , 

Even people talk things behind your back , pretending to be nice in front of you , 

You didn't even know a thing , Sigh , 

i pity you at times , your friends around you , some of them , aren't even truthful to you , 

why do you rather believe those Fakers and not the one telling the truth ? 

You think about it lo , You aren't any better than me , you see  . 

Before you poke into other people business , please control your own things , before it get out of hands , 

i know your gatal di bawah ini , 

this kind of dirty thing , no need i say , you also know yourself . 

May God bless you too . 

I need to thank this special someone that i think about ,

Who give me the happiness , teaching me about what life is all about .

How i wished you were with me , but i believe even if you were here ,

you will want me to talk things out , instead keeping to myself for long .

I believe when you are here , this kind of thing jiu bu hui happen liao .

Nah , like i said , i will be more stronger than anyone could imagine .

As Long As I have You , My Sisters , BFF , BingBing didi & my QinAide.

I don't need a scarface like you in my life anymore :) 

cause you are the witch , in my fairytale line . 

Rotten apple , is what you invented :) 

AhmadGhuzaili , thanks for the strength that you thought me for the past 1 year 9 months 2 weeks and 5 days . I love you , dearest . 

Miss you many many !<3

2010-11-23T07:18:00.000-08:00

Hi there ,
Suddenly reflect about myself & realized i might be making mistakes on the walk of my life .
I know i can't be perfect at times , all i can say is i am trying damm hard .
Maybe i am being petty about certain things ,
But you can't blame me , cause thats how my feelings go ,
I didn't want troubles too , I don't have such time to entertain you either .
But now that i am talking nicely , Doesn't mean that i give in ,
But put yourself in my shoes , think for me , what if you appeared to be in my position ?
If i were to like put other people words as mine ? i mean you can do the same , saying that i always finding problem with you and all ? but you think i really love it meh ? if you didn't create troubles , will i have things to find fault with you ? i mean , you can say all you want about me , i will say whatever , you can copy my words , so be it , but if you were to copy someone i love , and the phrases that me and him used to share .
Now that he is gone , all i have was only those memories . Think , you are using my love memories as your phrases like your love . Now step in my position and think for me , how will i feel , i can't be always the one caring for people and leaving my feeling inside me , i am human too , not stone of heart .
I don't really have hate for people.

I know i am not some Big Fuck , Big Boss , that need people to understand me stand in my position , & think like me , i am just telling you the feelings that is controlling me , i can't help .
Cause i am only left with words , Memories & part of love .
Nobody can really understand how it feels to be me ,
i know you will think i am talking cork , bullshits and all , i don't really care , all i know is , i am just speakings whats left in my heart .
I have to face people that are fake in the Day , I have to put on a smile & pretend nothing is happening In the afternoon , I have to Really pretend Everything is Ok in the night , I can only be myself when its after midnight . I have to worried about so many things at one goal , this min that might happened , next min another thing may pop up . I need to fight so hard in order to keep things together . I can't do anything except telling myself tomorrow will be a better day .
And this part here is for someone that was once special in my life .
I know you hate me now , I do hope i know the reasons for it , you used to be my best sisters & now we are less than strangers , We don't seem to talk , we don't seem to joke , We don't even contact . Sometimes i really been thinking to myself , maybe its really my fault that things turn this way , i think back at times , i felt it such a waste , sometimes its the pride that make us this way , but i feel there is nothing i can do do make it right again . When you are willing to let it go , tell me , i will be more than willing to have you back at least a friend , i am not trying to find friends cause i don't have , but i am trying to keep those laughter with me again .
I felt that its hard to keep Everybody together as one ,
like someone used to want me to do ,
I am trying my very best to solve those misunderstanding ,
I am heartbroken at times seeing you guys quarrel and fight ,
But i can't do anything isn't it ? But i hope if you guys happen to see this ,
Please think about how we came close , How we actually became strangers to friends to brother and sisters .
Don't you think its a waste .
i know friends are everywhere , But think the one you can actually trust wouldn't be your so called " friends"
Remember , friends will always be there when you needed them , not leave you alone and suffer.
I really hope we can become close like how we used to , i can't handle everything myself , i need all of your help and support too , i am not any superwoman or heros , i am a normal 17 year old girl on the streets .
What if one day i am gone , will you guys come together as one and visit me ?
Or excuses will be flying around till my body was burned ?
I will pray everyday , use every bit i could to pull back the friendship , brothership that i used to see .
i know i can't forced things , but thats the end , i am trying to keep up to it .

For my love , I felt disappointed but alittle chill ,
Cause at least i don't need to hear the sentence yet ,
disappointing is , i didn't get to see you , i miss you alot .
people , please do treasure when you have the chance ,
if you felt sad about breaking up with your Bf or Gf ?
Its not your worse yet , cause you still at least text , call or even see him/her at times .
counted yourself lucky already , don always think that you are the worse ,
count yourself lucky already . :)
I really hope people out there could think about what i have said for this .

I know i posted a lot . Whatever you guys think about this , feel free to tagg ,
tell me about your comments , i am talking about real life story over here and not made up stories .
:) take care people ,
Treasure what you have now , cause once its gone , its gone forever .
Tomorrow will be a brand new , better , great day :)
May god bless you .

2010-11-18T07:10:00.000-08:00

Everynite when the whole worlds dreamin'
I close my eyes and think of you..
If the wish i cast upon the brightest stars
would make my love come true..
Then let the angel bring me closer to you..
There's nothing that i want to be with...
than being with you .
Your heart against mine
Your love showering me,
There`s a special place in my heart for you .
and through today
Me`re far apart
My dreams tonight .

Hi baby , i really hope you will see this someday :)

this is from you , but now i am sharing with everyone , your piece of love .

i miss you , i really do , tons of it , its killing me bit by bit.

i hope you feel it , may god bless you , my sweetest love .

Love you yesterday , Love you still ,

Always have , Always Will :)

2010-11-15T06:23:00.000-08:00

Hi people .
I hate being sick , Having test tomorrow ,
Sigh , Tomorrow gonna have a big day , What to do .
Life is getting more meaningless than ever .
I felt kind of lazy blogging .
Sighh , I don't feel me anymore .
Sometimes when a person is laughing out loud crazily outside ,
Will be the one suffering for internal injuries till to sadness and depression . those wounds , nobody would ever understand , neither understood .
May people have an amazing night !

2010-11-12T06:20:00.000-08:00

Day 11- Missing you Deeply .

Hi people , i got no mood to post recently .
Don't ask me why . It has been 11 days since i blogged .
Means it has been 11 days , since he been gone .
Oh my , Tomorrow will be going to City Square .
Singapore is getting more and more crazy .
Police Bonus month , people please becareful .
Hmmm . Watching Tv now .

Bye people .
090209 (: Misses .

2010-11-02T06:56:00.000-07:00

I guess i need to get used to this kind of life .
I will miss you dearly .
Always will .

2010-10-31T09:10:00.000-07:00

Hi ,
I have been doing some soul searching for the past 3 days .
I don't like to talk about this ,
but maybe its kind of good if i could share my own story .
I sat on bus , listening to music ,
like before , thoughts flash by .
Looking at the streets that i step on before , the memories that have been haunting me for long ,
Am i just in love with the past ? or is it so hard just to let you go .
Even my white hair and pimples are popping out .
I still can't get an answer .
I could just cut those emotions , cause as i know , people may think that i am attention seeker ,
or want people to kelian , but NO .
its just that no matter how i type , no words would describe my feelings , or even could anyone understand ?
Sigh , is the best i could give .
I used to think that i can do anything on earth ,
Gain those experience , i never have a thought of regret ,
because , what has pass , its the past .
If i don't learn now , i would miss a great lesson in my big lifetime .
I always thought that studying was a waste of my time ,
but come to think about it , i really miss studying in beatty secondary school .
Those kind , is really fun , memories , that nobody could imagine .
but now having to study on my own , made new friends ,
still not sticky to them , is not a bad idea , as i could concentrate more .
The only problem i guess is , I don't seem like a click to them ,
We don't have the same topic , don't have the same mind set .
But i guess , i just have to move on with life hur .
Come to think about it , The people around me changed , that i don't deny ,
Sometimes i really wished i could share my feeling to someone .
Its not that i don't trust , its either , you guys have no time to hear ,
if not even if i say , nobody know how i felt right ?
I know i always have been saying the same old thing ,
same old answers have been repeating ,
but the problems still remain .

I guess I will never hit the best in your heart .
I tried enough , i am fucking-hell beat .
thoughts , negative thoughts have been controlling my mind ,
i can't help to think this way ,
There is nothing i can do to change anything .
The old you , wouldn't be back anymore right .
I think i really should stop dreaming ,
Because once you are awake , you still remain as nothing .
no improvement , no nothing .
Your angel ? I felt so hard even just to please you .
When can i stop crawling into your heart .
there aren't any express train right ,
Each step i made , the deeper i fall .
I will always be the last one & the only one behind the neverending race .
All i know now is ,
I , need to stop walking into the deepest sea .

2010-10-29T09:44:00.000-07:00

Finally watch finish ,
kinda of sad , not because of the ending or the show ,
but i finish watching so fast , what am i going to do for the rest of my time .
Oh my , anybody got show to intro me , please leave at my tagboard :)
thanks !

Sometimes if you happen to try so much for something ,
But you didn't , you felt depressed ,
When you didn't try and it became yours ,
you felt scared .
But if you try and get , you are joyful .
but what if you try , you get , but you lose it .
?
Cherish it when its yours , because , when its gone , its gone forever .
When i said forever , i mean it .

If its meant to be , no matter how long it diffs , it still belongs together .

I got no plans , no more fucking idea anymore .
I felt that i always try , try harder than anyone could imagine ,
till i feel nothing anymore .
i don't know what to do now .
:) Who else could , other than you .

Even though i hate you .
I don't why i still help you , even i don't wished to .
I mean , i can just see you suffer and die .
why the fuck did i dig into your business for .
What am i thinking at that point of time ,
can anyone explain to me ?

2010-10-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

I felt being betrayed .

Nevermind , count it as my bad luck then .

I don't know why i felt this way ,

but please think about what you said to me before &

now you are doing another .

Disappointing through , but still there is nothing i can do or say now .

Just my bad on trusting you . Teach you & because of you , i even get scolding .

Thats is why i said , Its not a good thing being nice to people .

I treat you good , help you and all , and this is that kind of shit Return i get hur .

Thanks alot .

Hey yo People :D
Have been doing the same old thing recently .
nothing much through .
Feel like changing my whole entire Brain .
SO good ones i could keep and bad ones i can throw away .
Now i finally knew what sweetheart was trying to say .
Shouldn't have been nice , people will step on you , when you smile .
Thats what life is about right .
I will be a chang-ed person from now .
I will Never help you ANYMORE !

Tomorrow will be a brand new day !
Fuck today .

2010-10-26T07:46:00.000-07:00

Hi. Big problem nowadays .
my head is getting bigger and bigger each day .
I love the way you cared about my feeling , finally felt so love .
Just like honey-mood period .
i don't know why when you just do alittle things , my day would be brighten up .
but what if the honey mood period is short .
nobody there to joke , rap , cheer me up with little face expression & etc .
nobody there to scold me when i do wrong ,
nobody to stop me if i get into trouble ,
nobody to call me in the middle of the night .
nobody to text me goodnight love .
nobody to watch sun rise or sunset with me .
nobody help me buy cig , nobody piggybag me .
nobody to smell DD:
oh man , kind of think about it , it seems scary .
i hope nothing will be happening k .

nobody for me to post about .
Tomorrow will be fine allright .
Stay away from trouble , love , friends !

2010-10-24T06:29:00.000-07:00

23.10.10
Hi , sorry for not blogging yesterday ,
felt damm tired when i reach home .
went to interchange at 3 , meet Timothy BFF , Yinghui And Valerie :)
And the funny thing was , when they wanna lie , i already seen through their plot.
haha ! we were waiting for zai and Adam ,
they lied and said they were at far east ,
& next too bad , same timing talking on the phone with them ,
my here have a loud horn sound , and their background have the same .
so i already knew , luckily i aren't stupid :D
haha ! went to eat 22 dollars steamboat ,
Got one mrNAGGY , keep kaobei , irritating , complaining about the 22 dollars .
the whole entire eating time , but was entertaining la :))
went to Ck , drink , vomit my 22 dollars :)
took cab home , at 11.30.
Fun fun Fun !
Thanks everybody ! thanks for msging , facebooking , my beloved friends and all !

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Went to meet Steffi , her mum , Sherrin .
Eat kiwi and orange juice , went to Steffi 's brother house slack & all .
awhile later went to Steffi's house watch tv , Slack .
Went up to Junguang's house , wake him up , Timothy came & went down,
Timothy went to 116 meet friends ,
& me and Junguang eat big feast :) Swensens !
whahahhaas :D gonna gain plenty this week ! Oh my !
Walk to block 7 after eating , went to play swing at block9 .
awhile went block 1 , waited for Lavin , send me home & here i am blogging .
Wish upon the yellowish moon :)
Gonna upload photos soon !
You guys will enjoy those funny scenes too !

I hope everything's gonna be allright .
doesn't mean i don't say means i don't care .
Love .

I wanna be a billionaire , so freaking bad ~

2010-10-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to October RG baby :D
haha ! mine will be 23 :)
By then nobody will call me sixteen anymore :)
haha ! new arrival of 17 :) in two days ! yeah !
went to school this week , so damm tired .
i even took a nap in the class ,
today was a damm funny party ,
you will laugh all you want if you were to be there :) whahahas
End school , meet yinghui , Qinaide , BFF Junguang Bingbing :D
haha ! home at 8.45 .
walk slowly ~

Thought flash by suddenly ,
On trains , on bus , beautiful scenery carrying alittle sorrows .
Green Healthy tree with damage torns .
Hearts of me and you , suddenly was torn .
The joint of love , was lost in the deepest sea , burried in the sand of kingdom .
Neverending life , it came from the bottom of my heart .
The tear was like joy , i give people .
i gain love , love from friends .
I gain lessons , each lessons a thousand tears
each love a thousand growth .
I grown , grown up :)
I tried my best each time round ,
Hurt no more i guess .
Love is a heartbreak lullaby .
Just like me and you :}

2010-10-19T07:20:00.000-07:00

I am so bored to post nowadays .
Junguang birthday ytd , went to marina square .
played a lot of rounds of arcade & won a few . :)
haha i am so damm brooke right now .
Went to school today , will be going tomorrow , until zai's court .
PRAY HARD okay ! :< saddening .
I hope i wouldn't receive soft toy this year .
my bed has plenty already .
i get so tired nowadays .
i want a B so badly , oh my , imaginations turning wild .
heehees !

Yesterday is a history ,
Tomorrow is a mystery ,
Today is a gift ,

2010-10-17T05:55:00.000-07:00

Hi people .
I realize that i don't have the mood for anything nowadays .
No mood for school , No mood to talk & etc .
Don't know why .
Tomorrow CPL will be going for operation ,
Please be allright , i am not good with words , but still , take good care of yourself .
Sigh big time !

Went to meet Steffi and Gary & Their mother at Toapayoh first .
Went up to Junguang house , pass him things .
Next , took cab to Redhill , Steffi's great-grandma house .
Next took cab to Bugis walk walk , buy plenty of things .
Brought the same sexy thingy with Steffi :) WOW!
Next buy school , Present , Socks , & so .
Smoke free free . WOW .
Meet Francita , Leiting At Bugis too ,
next saw their friends ,
& next thing i know was , i need to go home , & have dinner with my family .
SAKURA , eat alot sia . Gonna gain weight again D:
Sigh ! Oh my !
Took a long bus home , went past Amk ave 10 .
Which reminds me of somebody really special to me .
But Sigh , he went in already . This year birthday got to lose one big gift from korkor .
I miss you sial ! Oh my ! Sigh !
gonna watch DVD later , touching romantic disc borrowed from Steffi Lim sweetheart !
Tomorrow will be Chicky birthday !
:) but Sigh , having school , i wanna skip but then from school start until now ,
i only go for bloody two hours ,
i don't want to get debar anymore sial .
but sometimes got no choice la.
My birthday is coming , after my birthday ,
soon another nightmare from my 17th life would happen in another four days time after my birthday .
Sigh ! Hope everything will be allright .
Alot of things had been happening ,
i really need to think alot .
I don't know will i regret anot .
i really don't know .
Worse come to Worse , i guess i really tried my fucking best already D:
Sigh Big time again .

What to do , Life isn't the way we plan ^^"v

2010-10-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

Oh . Today was quite a pleasant day .
Everything was okay till evening ,
Oh my , not to mention over here .
No matter what forgive and forget la :)
talk thing out , things will be better .
I realize that there 's a mega stalker looking at my blog now :)
Hi bitch ! :D Stay tune , there will be more about you !
Go ahead and say whatever you want ,
not happy , you can just sms me , i will definitely entertain you .
You have my number what , no need swallow everything ,
just bomb it out , like you always do :)
You got a fuck face over there ,
Figuring whether i am talking about you right !
Yes you!

2010-10-13T07:17:00.000-07:00

Gosh , went to court today .
i Swear that the min i step in to Chinatown ,
My heart was trembling like Fuck !
Listen to the judge talking . Oh my , waited for so long .
Until Name was called , everything came to a standstill .
i was like stun la , till the talk was over .
i begin smiling non-stop . who will understand this joy & happiness ! :D
Went to Cantoment - Toapayoh- home .

I am in a confusing mindset now .
I kind of think tht treating people good , is not a good thing .
Fuck man , Fuck everything !
Gonna find something to chu qi , before i keep Swallowing & soon i will be a volcano .
i will blow up anytime very soon !
Alot of things are corrupting my mindset
nothing i do , is going right for me .
the hurt i am gaining , is like neverending dream to me .
Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you !

2010-10-11T07:20:00.000-07:00

I just don't have the mood to go school .
i hope everything gonna be fine as soon as possible .
I don't have the mood for anything .
I hope its not too late to make something good for a change .
I hate the feeling of waiting , nobody will understand the feeling .
i felt miserable , its like you wanting to see somebody yet you can't anything.
When you need somebody , yet he is not there , when you wished to .
when you need hugs , you can only imagine .
when you need someone to talk to , you can only talk to things .
you have to put on a smile , even if tears are flowing .
the kind of tore heart feeling , who will ever understand .
Guys said that girls are bastard and all , but ask yourself , have you ever tried the feeling before ?
if you didn't , you can jolly shut the fuck up .
You guys will never understand right . Try it yourself & you will know what i mean .
I don't want to make any promises this time round ,
its not like i am saying i will flee with somebody else .
its i don't want to hurt people with empty promises .
Even rainbow cannot brighten up my days now .
I don't wished to go school in this state seriously .
my mind is full of everything .
I am trying hard to hold back my tears , i don't know how long i can hang on .
Who will understand ?
Today is the last day , i spending ,
what will tomorrow be like , i really don't wished to think about it .
Exams finally over for you , yet there is not time for me .
what am i supposed to do .
After tonight , tomorrow gonna be a nightmare for me .

I love you , Seriously .
Gonna pray real hard this time round .
Please , don't leave me alone again .

2010-10-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

Irritated.

Today meet up with sweetheart .
Saw yinghui & valerie at Bishan too .
Slack around at Bishan with sweetheart , Francita & Gary .
Saw Zoey too . so long never see her :)
Gonna meet Siru & Rozanne soon .
miss them so much , alot i mean !
Went back to Tpy . Meet Junguang at his house then ,
Went to eat at 90 plus , meet Hubert over there .
Adam & Zai was like sleeping like deadlock .
Then Junguang went home , then i was like feeding those irritating mosquitoes.
Oh my , make until my leg have a few baobao !
then Shermaine came , went behind again then went in to Hubert house slack .
then 8.20 sharp , went home.
Can't have peace till now.

~~I am afraid that i might not have enough time .~~

~~I don't want to lose you .~~

~~Neither i want to see any other people leave .~~

~~i just hope everything will be okays .~~

~~& also peace and harmony between us .~~

~~Gonna pray real hard for everyone .~~

~~Reasons behind reasons .~~

~~What will happen in the end , its still a standstill .~~

~~Don't leave me behind alone can :{~~

Today is a special day :)

2010-10-09T08:41:00.000-07:00

Today is an important day for me .
My 1 year 8 months Anniversary & my Grandma's Birthday
Went out meet the couples of 9 today :D.
Hubert &Yingxuan , Adam &Shermaine , & my baaby !
Haha , didn't manage to have a group photo .
Half the time was like looking for hubert , don know what he doing also .
after that we had a small picnic at the roof of Vivo :D
waited for them , because of their lies , i waited for 1 hour .
stupid Adam , BIG FAT LIAR !
But over all , its still quite fun , correcting people english and all .
Photos still there :) yup .
but because of my Grandma's birthday , i couldn't stay any longer .
Sorry baby , for making you being lonely .
While bi send me to bus stop , we walk past the pet shop ,
saw all the cute little dogs , awhile later we walk to Mrt station .
when my family came , then bi left :)
went to habourfont centre , went to take alot of photos , eat plently of food .
I can gain at least 10 kg man , fattening .
full to the max .
funny joke funny joke !
went home at 10.30 .

I miss you bi .
I hope you wouldn't do anything stupid things anymore k .
I love you !
& Happy Anniversary to you .

2010-10-07T08:47:00.000-07:00

i am very stressed now .
Who could understand my feelings ?
I don know what i can do .
what do you want me to do ?
you keep on doing case ?
nobody wants you to go in ,
but then why ? what do you want me to do then you will stop ?
i just realize that my life is a total disaster
i am losing everyone that i love , one by one .
who will be with me till the very end ,
who will understand the feeling of waiting ?
Fuck man , seriously .
my head is gonna bust soon .

I am afraid to go to the hospital .
You guys always think that i am heartless and all .
who is me , who understand ,
who is going through everything with me ,
why do bad things come at one goal ?
why do i wished to the stars and it doesn't come true .
I don't want you to leave me , i don't want to see another person leaving my life .
i really hope you pull through .
i don't want to go through all the pain again .
Please be strong , i don't want to held on a cold hands anymore .
I don't want to see nurse bullying scene again ,
i am sorry , i never made you proud before .
All i give was disappointment ,
i always make you angry, sad , troubled ;
Please don't leave me , i cannot afford to lose anybody anymore .
Please .

Fuck my whole entire life .

2010-10-04T06:41:00.000-07:00

Today was quite fun ,
Chit chat about our Secondary school life .
Kind of miss it , School camp was so fun lars .
haha , time past so fast . And now we are leading different kind of life now .
Hmmm , :) Miss it man ! Awwww !
Slack With BingBing , Junguang , Hubert & Timothy ,
Sit at those coffeeShop , was like those Uncle Auntie Talking cork :)
After Timothy left , went to Nearby School there slack ,
& talk cork about our life .
haha ! Kinda Funny when we talk about on our life , How we meet and all .
Funny stuff Flash back & it just like yesterday .
Went to Apple house take bus & home .

I will pray hard through . For everyone .
I hope my prayers would be answered .

2010-10-03T07:14:00.000-07:00

Hi People ,
I went to baibai my grandfather and grandmother today .
Woke up early in the morning .
Came back home again.
went to Tpy meet up with Steffi .
Then went Hubert house behind slack ,
damm long since i felt this way ,
:) actually i am supposed to be happy ,
but i just felt , if time could allow just , give us more time together can D;
hmmmm , my heart sank .
i miss it , seriously .

Today gonna post about my life again .
I have a group of best brother , my sisters , One & only love before .
we slack together , eat together , smoke together .
we used to be together ,
but because of those silly mistakes we make ,
we have to leave for some time .
For how long we been through ,
one is hurt , we feel hurt .
we cannot leave each other , we stay together as a group .
Our love wouldn't change , i believe till now , it never change .
we still care for each other .
Now that we are finally back together ,
although some left , didn't come back ,
we are shag , we sad , we get over .
But even if one do wrong , we don't even have the heart to blame .
We can be far more better than those business people .
cause we understand the meaning of kinship i guess .
People will think we are heartless ,
but they never know deep inside we are really soft and kind soul .
We talk sometimes is harsh because we care but don;t actually mean what we mean.
Like my Bff :) Junguang , Yinghui . Steffi
i am not saying the rest of them are not good .
but they are very kindhearted .
Hubert , Zac , Zai :)
Everyone is among us :)
Valerie and Jasmine will always be there to wipe our tears :)
Xueni will be the sotong one ,
Sherlynn is more to mature type , giving us advice and all .
BingBing will be the one who is 24/7 standby .
giving him a call when you are lonely , he will be there .
Jokes among us are endless .
We made mistakes and now we gonna be apart again .
I will remember always treat my Precious son Happy meal ,
thinking that 20 years later , we will sit together again :)
X.gary will be the Mr =Mentally retarded.
Time passes really fast .
& my Qin Ai de , Heart also like toufu :)
Sometimes he don't mean what he says , cause he is cute :)
Wencai will be there when a friend need him .
Everyone has a special point .
We used to be a big group and now , some are slowly coming back .
Some still at the standstill . i don't know what is going to happen next .
I just hope everything will be allright .
The feeling that i am having now , is like fighting war against Time .
The time we had is short and limited .
Nobody could understood the feeling except us i guess .
Everyone had problems . but its coming one by one ,
when things are getting better , we would lose somethings .
We experience different thing everyday ,
I just hope all misunderstanding will be solve .
And be back together as one .
I really hope Time would be long , before one leaves .
Time is my battlefield for one .

As i lay my love for you .

2010-10-02T07:55:00.000-07:00

Today finally slept through ,
but still very tired , around 3 plus sleep ,
woke up at 2 in the afternoon ,
Bath and everything , then went to Toapayoh meet Timothty & Junguang :D
Talk about alot of things then went to block 7 meet Zac , Ck , Weijie , Bingbing ,
awhile later i jiu went home le .

Time is passing fast ,
I hope i don't waste any of the time .
I don't want to regret :<

Please God , Spare me the time .

2010-10-01T11:15:00.000-07:00

Haven't slept .
Can't sleep . i don't know why , maybe i over reacted thats why ,
or its the feeling that is waking me up .
Went to do something in the morning ,
went back to Toa Payoh then Slack ALL the way ,
then went home . Wow .

What Choices would i make ?
I hate making hard decisions .
What to do ... I am thinking hard about what to do next .
What am i supposed to do ?
What can i do more ?
How can i help ? I felt helpless !
Oh my , Oh my gosh !
I don't wished to let you have any disappointment ,
but thinking that history is going to repeat again ,
What am i going to do with my days left ?
I got no idea at all .
~~Iwillbewaiting~~~

2010-09-30T07:36:00.000-07:00

Today went to Changi Woman Prison ,
Totally like dog , Food Dog , Officer all dog , Everything there also dog .
& we have to behave like one ,
Eat the food until i wanna vomit ,
Still handcuff us , ask we all to lie down inside lock up ,
See their "BRANDED" stuff ,
Oh my god , nearly die over there !
When they say end of session ,
i was like finally smiling la :) whahahahs ,
when i see the sun shine towards my face ,
i was like dammmmmm Happy !
You guys cannot imagine the torture over there ,
i can really die over there .
Oh my , Oh my gosh !

I hope you will be fine .
I really hope nothing will happen to you .
Why are you so stupid , Fucking stupid .
Haven't you thought of people who care , Friends that was around you .
You are seriously making me worried sick .
Please Call me :/

2010-09-28T08:31:00.000-07:00

Hello :>
Went to Jooseng today ,
Meet Steffi Sweeeeetheart :)
Eat Oreo Cheesecake & fruit tart .
i still remember girls home family day , we all snatching the fruit tart .
but it was really yummy okays !
haha , Kiwi one , i still remember ,
today Sweetheart give me eat , we both were talking about it .
& laughing luh , so funny !
We always have extra serving because , Sipeipeipeipei is on diet !
hahaha ! Yummy !
Then slack , smoke & then talk .
looks very classy :)
Saw Puvan , my primary school friend ,
felt so weird , she still as irratating as before .
who knows , she is a regular customer of Steffi working place ,
still disturb her some more , really never die before :)
haha ! Meet up with Aliyah too .
Long time no see , I wanna get back my primary school friends number ,
While she said some of the names ,
i actually cannot recall a thing at all , Oh WOW .
Went to Meet Junguang ,, Hubert , BFF :)
Then walk together to block one , meet Qin ai de :) haha !
Then slack awhile then go central ,
SAW a Uncle PG , infront of More than words ,
POWER MAN ! fierce ka !
Meet Lavin , Ah Bee .
Went to take train , Saw one junior then talk cork ,
Went home :)
haha ! meet so many people :)

A leopard never change its spots .

2010-09-26T07:22:00.000-07:00

Hi people ,
quite long never update le .
hmmmm .. How is life for everybody ?
i am fine , every people got different situation now .
Hopefully things will get better , friends will get closer ,
& i am happier C: hahah !
Webcaming with Mr Nice Guy now :)
So nice and sweet of him , I am serious !
thats why i called him , Mr Nice Guy :)
Right , Bff :) haha !

Went around everywhere this few days ,
Waited for somebody for 1 hour and 45 mins ,
Wow , went Bishan talk cork then Went home :)

Tomorrow will be a brand new day again .
Un-Addicted .

I am Gonna lead a new life from now.

2010-09-24T07:30:00.000-07:00

Hey People :)
Stayed at home today till 3 plus then went to block 7 .
Raining so heavily , WOW .
Luckily i bought my jacket . YES !
Meet Zai , Ask him to help me buy Cig ,
then Went to slack all around , & i am so bored luh !
Boring to the max .
:D haha , after that Home at 8.50pm.

I have decided ,
Maybe this way you & i Will be happier ,
i don't want to be a burden to you .
Like i said , i don't have what it takes to be with you .
Neither should the both of us keep Clinging on what right :]
All i can say is , i am giving my best shot now .
I really hopes nothing will pull me down this time round .
May you find someone you love & need .
I am not good enough , i know myself :)
Hope you have a better future & love yourself more k .
i guess , everything shall have an ending , just like you & i :)

Hey Sisters , i miss each and everyone of you .
So long since we had an Big outing .
We shall organize one very soon .
Love & miss each and everyone of you .
TO the MAX :D

For the love that is so free ,
I freely die for right now :)

Am leading something new and afresh .

2010-09-23T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hi people .
Today , Chamaine and Yinghui came over to my house .
Cooked a big pot of porridge.
bath everything , went to tpy , meet junguang .
then went to buy scratch and win ,
then went to central with Zai & CK.
then meet Adam , his Gf & a friend .
i am sorry about the balloon.
went home at 8 plus .

Baby, i am a troublemaker .

I am swallowing my tears once and for all .

2010-09-20T06:54:00.000-07:00

Hello People :)
Went to meet Yinghui today .
Then Zai Shawn And Junguang .
Went to bishan with yinghui at night ,
then went home .

Steffi Lim :)
I know You wil be reading this .
This one is for you :)
Its the heart that counts , babe .
I know i see you lesser and lesser each week .
But at least i know you care :) & lastly i love you :D
Its okays :)

I trying my very best to give you all the love i have .
I am left with none now . I felt tired at times .
Sometimes i really feel like sleeping the whole entire day & not waking up the next day .
I felt like i am left with nothing.
Nothing at all . i lost , i really lost it all .
I bet it with my whole entire love & now the heartaches is back .
But now i felt numb , very numb .
I am like left with no places to go .
No where else .
Being independent again ?
i am tired of faking a smile each time .
I used to have alot of things to do , to kill time .
but now , i felt bored with life .
there is nothing to do , but to waste my time away .
What to do life is getting as meaningless as it can be .
Alot of things have been happening to me .
i don't know how to cope it .
i sed to be the one telling people ,
Don't think too much , think of the bright side and all .
but now , i realise that it has no help at all .
It doesn't help . It doesn't cure .
I used to have alot of love in me .
I feel warm and happy , but now its like so cold and empty .
All i can say is , People may see the outer part of me ,
what inner part , only those who know me well ,
understand what i am thinking ba .
I am falling deep . Where were you , when i needed you the most ?
i tired to be there always for you , but you ?
Whenever i am down , i have my sisters with me ,
even if they are not , they care for me still .
but What i needed most now was just love .
Pull me through . but there ain't any ,
i become very shag nowadays ,
i cannot help .
You used to promise me to be there for me everytime when i need you .
You would show me love and concern .
& even when i don't need you ,
You would be smiling back at me .
& now ... i guess i am just alone .
its always like a battlefield .

Sisters ,
We used to said that we would live together one day ,
different kind of dirty things hanging on the bamboo , with different colours ,
& we will be sitting there laughing at that hanging bamboo .
We used to play with cloud writing our name , making shapes ,
We used to go to church just to EAT good food :)
We always slack at 99c , banging the machine ,
Eating at 94 , Smoking everywhere .
After school , same routine .
talking about hot guyss topic ,
every week we would have HOT topic To talk about .
& i know i am the lousiest .
Steffi is the most disgusting one ,
Yinghui is the most nosiest ,
Valerie would always be the most daring one .
Jasmine would be the most huggiest :)
Xueni will be the most sotong one :)
Although now we are busy finishing our sentence .
Don't often meet up and so .
But we wouldn't drift apart :) i believe :)
So many different kind of memories.
& i will always remember how we met and what comments we have for each other ,
when we first met :)
hhaaha :D Enjoy reading sisters :)
I love you , always have been :)

2010-09-19T06:52:00.000-07:00

Went to Temple today ,
See my grandmother& grandfather at the temple D:
I miss them seriously ,
My mother asked me today
:" You don't seems to be sad and missing them at all , after they left."
What do you want me to do ?
Cry over and over timelessly ?
I don't get it at all .
Who says i don't miss , i don't even remember my grandfather's face at all.
What is everybody expecting of me ?
Seriously i don't know .
Everything is coming towards me .
I am not that strong to tahan everything by myself .
Who will understand ? Who will be me ?
Forget about that .

Next , I don't know is this a good news or bad news ?
I know you guys don't know what i am talking about .
Should i be happy over it ? or depressed over it .
Oh my , After i saw that , I almost fainted .
Oh my . Forget about this too .

I don't know whether today , i fai pi qi at YOU is a good thing or bad thing .
Promises breaking ?
I left her behind walking , while she still smile back at me ,
While you are sleeping next to me ,
I almost cried . I know i always don't treasure you .
I am totally not cut out to be the best , While i am always the worse i know D:
I wonder what will happen if one day you are not here .
I always made you cry in the past ,
i am a disappointment , i know .
I am sorry for not letting you to be the most happiest .
i break my promise too , i didn't mean to left you behind .
just that , i don't know what is happening to me either .
i must be crazy !
i know each day i am living , is a wastage to the earth .
i know it is an accident to have me born .
i know , you don't have to deny anymore .
i am not suppose to live , i know .
i am sorry , i cannot help .
I felt like i just sank in the deep sea , & i cannot float up .

I am typing all this , not to gain pitiful , or propose my life to be a weak one .
I am just trying to vent out everything that was in me ,
if not i would really become insane , day by day ,
if all this shit is continuing to happen .
Who will be there when i was falling ?
i cannot even help myself up , Not even other could i guess .
Blissful life that i am leading now ? Laughs .
FML now then .

Oh my .

2010-09-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hi people .
Camwhore the night .
was bored .
went out with Yinghui And Charmaine today .
Spend finish everything had in my wallet .
Oh my , went to cine de Kbox ,
Saw baby there , didn't meet up or speak to him .
hmmm , wondering if tomorrow things will get better :)
went to City Plaza too , then back to tpy .
Wondering where should i go tomorrow ?
Feel like buying alot of things .
Tomorrow will be a better day .

I hope you will feel better ,
Everything , there will be a solution ,
If you are not happy , i give you joy k :)
i am sorry , i cannot help .
hais , what to do , i ain't the best joker in the world ,
but i can try to be the best listener .
Please tell me if you have problem k.
I love you .
always will do .

2010-09-17T08:55:00.000-07:00

HI ,
Slept through for 11 hours ,
Since long i have slept so long ,
tomorrow going out :) hahah! yeah !
hmmm , hope to see baby tomorrow :)
haha , it wasn't part of my plan , i swear .
just hen qiao . seriously !
went to Tpy today , meet up with Baby & Liping :)
then Slack Slack -Home .

Hmmm .. where do i start .
i felt helpless today , i didn't know what to say to you .
i am sorry , my bad , i know .
i cannot help , i not no good , Sigh .
i am not the best joker as you , i will keep trying ok .
i promised i will try my best to catch up with you .
i don't know what happen , but definitely is something no good .
Sigh , what to do.
i know you are putting a strong surface .
Deep inside you is soft , honey !
I love you , i will be there for you , i promised ,
i try k :)

2010-09-16T08:59:00.000-07:00

I was like so damm bored in the afternoon ,
So i played with my webcam , there is still alot more .
Hahaha , Son i know you see this you gonna laugh you ass out :)
haha , random Fuck face i know :)

I am trying my best to be as understanding as possible .
I love you , i really do .
I cannot even bear to be angry with you ,
Oh my god , whats this .
i just hope things will get better in time .
Please-sse :<<<<<<<<<

2010-09-15T07:37:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the last paper already .
Is like finally la , after studying for so long .
Hmmmm , i know its unbelievable , But indeed I study k -.-
Went home then to program , then to tpy (L)

You will be the Sweetest Person that i have ever meet ,
Sometimes although i don't know how to meet your requirement ,
i don't know how to be the greatest girlfriend or soulmate ,
but i will try my very best to love .
All we been through was harder than i thought ,
when i look back , its just like yesterday .
You are definitely the Greatest person in my life .
You always lighten up my day just by a blink of everything .
I don't know when but you have slowly become an important part of my life .
Without you , i wouldn't find love .
:) i wouldn't even bear to hurt you ,
Baby , i will be loving you always .

2010-09-13T07:23:00.000-07:00

Hi People ,
Having exams period .
Oh my , stressful .
Cannot think of stories to fill my blog either .

What do people want for in life .
Why do people fight so hard but nothing turns out right at times .
There is no stories but instead questions in my brain .
Is there anything people want to fulfill when they die .
What will be the final wishes people would make ?
Is money what people is fighting for ?
Or is it freedom people trying to grab hold ?
Or love is holding them too deep ?
why are we fighting so hard for our goals ?
hmmm .. Plently of questions .

Who will be solving , is it god , is it Somebody , Or You yourself ?

2010-09-11T06:56:00.000-07:00

Hey People ,
Went to Bishan today for Swenson :)
Then went to Tpy Buy things and meet up with BingBing ,
Took bus to Amk For Resident Evil ,
Nearly got shock of my life . Wow .
Nice indeed :) Went back to Tpy , take bus then Home :)
haha ! still very full , thanks Sayang :)

Today i am gonna post about my very own story ,
Didn't thought that i will post this but yeah ,

Friends come by and go , i finally accepted that fact ,
I used to have alot alot alot of friends that standby me ,
Now i still have but not as many ,
i don't know when i started accepting that fact ,
Mainly its because i heard a story of one of my love .
Friends do change , i don't deny that i don't change .
I did , alot , i admit .
I do still love them like how i used to , always have been .
But people met new friends , friends with another friends ,
soon they will leave , having best friend is great ,
but having best friend that leaves , that hurts , i understood it .
:) & i am sorry if i haven't been there when you guys needed me ,
but its definitely i will still be there 24/7 :)
i am trying my best , i know at times i cannot give the best advice ,
i cannot be the best joker on earth ,
but i am really willing to care if you agree to share :)
I am not posting this because i need friends ,
or people sympathy , but because i need my friends to understand ,
i will never leave , if you need me , i will try to be there .
i learn to see people's facial expressions , like whether they are happy or not ,
but i cannot read minds , if only i can .
but too bad i can't .
Backstabbing ? in this world , people will face this one day ,
it hurts , but its a start of a growing point ,
accept it then , maybe try helping them ,
or maybe the worse give up on them ,
Pull yourself together then ,
I didn't copy people's blog or any article ,
but its really from the bottom of my heart .
For me , I made alot of sisters in the past 11 years ,
but some come and go , some will backstab ,
but still we are friends :) haha !
But now i have 6 beloved sisters :)
ya , the fact is we don't usually meet up ,
but we do share our problems together ,
we don''t have much time , thats for sure ,
School , work ? blah blah ,
yeah , we did quarrel , Big time for sure .
But still we would clear our misunderstanding ,
i hope our sistership is strong ,
i know people out there looking at this will laugh ,
thinking that a 17 year old brain still thinking that there is sistership in this world ,
but yeah , i believe . cause after all we been through ,
we are still together , yeah one day we would leave each other ,
having our own family .Our own career , our own life .
But i hope this memories will always stay :)

For Love .
People step up and down ,
we don't usually get what we wanted at the end ,
but if we tried , we wouldn't regret ,
even 10 years down the road , looking back , we will laugh ,
but its worth the try :)
Relationship is hard to keep , I understand .
but love the one you need ,
not love the one you like .
People may think i am talking big , talking craps ,
but for me , its true :)
i would even imagine a future between me & My another half :)
haha , i know its too young , but still which girl wouldn't right ?
Couples do fight , but if we don't ,
how do we even know where do we stand in each others heart :)
how important somebody can be .
how hurting it may cause for each other ,
how much tears will be shed :)
Things may change , its comes and goes .
but still life move on right ,
I love you , its easy to say ,
But hard to express .
thinking of you is easy , but missing you is hard thing .
Suffering ? if suffering with someone you love can be a blissful thing ,
Don't you think ,
just because you don't want to suffer for the rest of your life ,
you give up a love that is so free ?
its a waste and its selfish , i know :)
i don't mean that i am this kind .
but yeah , if its worth the wait ,
then continue to then , haha :)
Sacrifice can be love too .
Wouldn't having to suffer , then love .
can be a painful thing in future .
& Love can be easy saying of cause :)
i really hope Some People Out there would understand :)
haha ! thanks god , I am Pouring it out :)
Sharing with people :) yeah !

Tomorrow will be a better day :)
Hint Hint :)

2010-09-08T07:30:00.000-07:00

Hey there peeps :)
Got my tougue pierce-d :D
WOW . Amazing ! ^^

Today my father asked me , am i having problems & i am keeping it to myself .
OH my , first time in my 17th life ,
Felt touched at first , But i cannot shared problems with him either .
Felt so weird , so instead i told him , Because of my exams ^^ haha.
But i am allright what :D just that i don't speak much as my tougue was swollen :)
Went to school as normal , did a common test ,
receive next term time table , Nearly got shock of my life . -.-!
Everyday until 5 ? oh my gosh !
EVEN friday ? New subjects to be added , Oh man , Stress-ed sia .

Oh ya , Having fever now , Nearly faint last night ,
its common , just that added on a little Nose bleeding -.-
Having nose bleed nowadays , wondering why .
Don't worry peeps , I don't see dirty things -.- !

Haven't been updating , for like a few days ,
is not that i am lazy but i don't know what to write .
hmmm .. things are getting more and more worse ,
My Precious son told me this today :
" A Good Experience Comes From a Bad one "
Hmmmm. Maybe ? :]
haha ! Going out tomorrow ! Yes !

I miss some people in my life .
Maybe i lost them , i got no idea either .
I felt kind of relieve After Today .
Maybe its because of the rain ? Maybe its because of the sun ?
I will try my best to fork out as many time as possible :]

Bread , don't worry ,
Everything will be fine , Things get worse ,
take it easy sis , If he don't cherish it , he will lose it ,
one fine day , you might find him crawling back to you ,
by then i believe You will be standing up tall , Smilling at him ,
& you wouldn't look back . I know how hard it is ,
We been through things together , Hard times fun times :D
Twice , i cannot believe it either . haha !
Keep your heart big , Cause you need to keep space for me :)
Take good care of yourself k , Anything feel free to share .
Meet up with you REAL Soon :D haha !
Love you Miss you Tons ! ^^

I feel like this post is quite long , haha !
Not bad , everything add up , its okays luh :)
Oh my , My head hurts , its like spining .
I am seeing circles now .
Oh my , Shall blog tomorrow . :)
Love peeps , Gonna sleep now !

Tomorrow it used to be a special day ,
But not now anymore :)
With Me along , will be a damm burden .
With Love along , Its dragging you deeper ,
With You Along , You are free :)
Believing tomorrow its a new beginning ,
Love would take me home .
People like you , Would love as much as you always do .
Everything was like a fairytale ,
Its just BOOM & gone .
ahahha !

Night night people ^^

2010-09-06T07:29:00.000-07:00

Went to school today .
SO boring .
Went to tpy after school today .
tomorrow gonna stay till 5 . don know what they want us to do also .
boring boring ~

Oh man . I don know why am i feeling this .
maybe because i am a girl ,
thats why emotional strikes .
But seriously Love is a selfish thing .
Imagine YOU in my shoes -.-
I do THAT to your love one !
HOW FUCKING HELL WILL YOU FEEL !
If i could , i will Strangle YOU for SURE .
Arghh , please luh , Get a life .
Stop copying people . Get a life , Bitch !
Waolao eh , Cb Kia sia you !
If you are sad , thats your fucking problem -.-
If you are not , Please keep things to yourself .
If you are here to stalk me -.- , You should know Yourself clearly -.-
You are a dammmm Pin in the ass -.-
Argh ~

2010-09-04T19:15:00.000-07:00

Last night receive a text ,
& I could already guess what happen .
Promises after promises .
I felt that i have no strength to even move abit closer .
Seriously what the fuck do you guys want ,
i seriously don't know .
Fucking hell , Bloodly shit .
Early morning suck blood !
Yesterday scene didn't scared you guys off either .
Fine , i don't wanna care anymore .
If this is what you guys want ,
Next time My problem will be mine .
Utterly Speechless .

2010-09-03T08:16:00.000-07:00

Cam-Whoring :) haha ! Some was taken when Waiting for Son ,

Some taken when boring in school .

Some was doing project . :)

& yeah !

Went to Ck house today .

Slack-ed and See some show of how future mum-to-be .

I swear i wouldn't been like this . haha !

Hope CK is fine , The girl was just too -.-

Cheer up :)

Chill , Oh my , Life is getting hard .

Alot people might agree :) haha !

Tomorrow going to school early morning ,

Spoilt my sleep AGAIN ! Oh my !

Hope to see you study tomorrow .

Your exams are coming .

Think about what you guys need to do man .

:D Love you !

2010-09-02T19:07:00.000-07:00

Didn't update for few days .
WOW . cannot believe it either .
I guess i just have to try for everyday of my life .
You leave me breathless .
Gonna have Combat later . Oh man ,
Tired of climbing hills . Oh my gosh !
So beautiful you leave in me ~

2010-08-31T19:08:00.000-07:00

I feel like Crying out of a sudden .
I don't know why ,
maybe i have been controlling too much .
i seriously got no idea .
Am i too much ? am I ?
I just don't want to say goodbye .
My love always remain .
It always been crash down again .
I really don know what i can do .
Your tone of words , make me feel that i am just another person .
Maybe i just don't deserve .
I shouldn't have bet on it , seriously it just not a bet .
i am betting all my love on it .
betting all my hopes . & everything .
I have been trying my best . But i guess i never get anything in return again .
How long more do i have to try , How long more do i have to endure .
Swear it all over again .
If i were to let you go . Will you be better ?
I don't want to be the one torturing you .
But it appears to be . I never want to be the scene .
You can say i never grow up , i am childish , i am native.
Seriously , i don't see any wrong even getting a slight hope .
A slight little hope will do .
At least let me hold on to a little . Just a little i am happy enough .
Am i too much .
Once again , i am thinking about , taking the easy way out .
:{

2010-08-30T07:22:00.000-07:00

Finally upload .
Precious son , you can save it already .
Went to school today , was debar from examinations .
but trying my best lars , hopefully everything will br fine .
OH man There is a biantai , his face look sicko & i don like him at all .
my goodness . Disgustin asshole .
But i kinda love a cute little ass now :)
More than he ever know ;) whahahahs !
i wonder why . Seriously i don't know why i love :)
but i believe there will be chemistry . haha ,
i will be patient . No matter how it gonna hurt .
I will never forget you and move on .
Just like you never given up on me before .
I love you ass !
Always have Always will !

2010-08-29T06:40:00.000-07:00

Hi peeople . was being called up early in the morning ,
thanks to my Precious son .
it was like the sun haven't rise and he is already asking me to go and bath .
But of cause , i wwent back to sleep .
haha ! meet him up at 2 plus .
Slack awhile then Zai came , so is bingbing , then went to Ck house ,
wake him up , And did some slapping games ,
& my cheeks was so hot and red .
My goodness . So is SOmebody ! haha !
Went back to Block 7 slack .
And the slapping game begin again .
then Waited till 8 & i went back home :)

I finally hear something that i longed to hear it .
Oh man . Its like all this while i am fighting for ,
Its still worth :) whahahahhas , nobody understand what i am feeling now .
& Still , i will Love you :F

2010-08-28T06:14:00.000-07:00

Hi ,
First day of happiness , First start of something new in my life . :)
Happy sia . :)
Went to meet zack . And yinghui ,
Went to Ck House awhile , Had a little fun and laughter .
Next , went to Zac's house :) haha !
Then went to Sengkang program .
Was quite fun , Finally everything ended .
After all my programs end & there goes my countdown .
Felt delight :) Eat alot today , so gonna become fat !
There goes my plan of diet .
Going out tomorrow and the day after tomorrow , School . -.-
So damm boring , but my attendance need to be good .
i can't skip anymore , if not i cannot take examination .
Goodnight people . :)

I love you more than anything.

2010-08-27T08:29:00.000-07:00

Alot of photos is at facebook .
Tag them man :D
So many photos , upload until my hand like soft sia .
TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF HELLLLLLLL :D
program tomorrow.

2010-08-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to yinghui :D
Hope you Enjoyed today :)
i didn't mean to lie . but glad that you enjoyed yourself today .
I enjoyed myself too . haha !
Hope today will be remembered .
Great day indeed . Always passby fast .
Don't know why .
Thanks People .
such as Jasmine , Sherlynn , Precious Son , Junguang , Bingbing , Chye Keong , ZAI :D
Photos will be update soon . yes !
I am loving it .
Gonna treat son to eat happy meal tomorrow .
Tomorrow will be a better day .
i will cherish every moment with you guys .
i can bear to leave either . how about you guys ? D:

2010-08-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hi people . Went alot places today ,

and now i am dead beat .

Woke up early morning , attended a court .

Yeah , happy part was , Everything was fine :)

Second , went home again , changed and went to alter my skirt .

Next , went to Ck house .

The damm cool and exciting part came from here .

heehees :) hahahha!

But overall , although a little heartbreaking ,

but still , i Loved it :) whahahas .

Went to reporting at 5 .

went to apple house next to meet BFF :D

Then walk to Block 7 , meet the rest of my cliques :)

Slack Slack :D

Next went to Apple house again ,

This time , Took bus home .

Oh man , Went home did some Preparation for tomorrow .

Tomorrow will definately be great ,

i wish i wish with all my heart :)

It never failed to make me love you more .

2010-08-24T09:05:00.000-07:00

Better post something while i can :)
Today slept through , went to programme and have a boring talk .
this week will be the last time of programme .
will miss it for sure , but lazy to go until sengkang everytime .
Went to Bishan after programme , meet many friends :)
Around 8.30 went home.
Going for reporting tomorrow . Need to climb mountain tomorrow .
Sians , I wanna sigh LINE .
Two more days will be somebody 's birthday .
Next week , i have got nothing to say then ... hais.
i hope its not too late to do anything to make it right . :)

cheers people !
Me when i was young . :) cute right :)

2010-08-23T06:58:00.001-07:00

Going to be so busy this week .
Glad to say , i left with 6 more days or hell .
Thanks god 29 is sunday , so i have been minus away one day :)
so happy can :) whahahahas !

De bu dao , cai shi zui wan mei de , shi ma ?

2010-08-21T06:17:00.000-07:00

Today was FUN :D
yeah , such a long time since we went out together .
But happy times always past fast , soon it will be tomorrow ,
today will become history.
Will upload pictures soon . YES !
Beautiful moments :)
i think some things are getting better , hope everything will be allright .
& life would be better .

Tomorrow gonna have a long day .
Sian , don feel like going but i guess i have no choice .
everthing was plan even i dislike it .
It has been happening ever since i was born .
boring day tomorrow .

I am going to remember today ,
STEP UP 3 , AWESOME :D
YES YES YES . So gonna organise this kind of outing again .
Thanks people for coming , for those who did not ,
its allright , there is always another time :) hees !

My laptop D:
So gonna cry .

2010-08-20T06:40:00.000-07:00

Went to do somethings in in the morning ,
but everything is fine now :)
truth was at least out . People do not need to pretend anymore .
The true colour was as beautiful as rainbow .
Went to meet Xueni , watch ghost movie ,
then went to meet Timothy , Then went to meet Junguang .
Then went home .
My stupid laptop spoil , Angry si wo .
All my photos are gone , i wanna cry already sia .
even the last memories , are gone .
is this what it was meant to be .
i hope i still left some . i would continue finding it .
DDDD:

What i want to say , I said already .
I done my part , i might not have regrets ,
but have you told me all the things , you wanna say .
I will be leaving soon . As soon as i finish my things .
wouldn't you ask me to stay ?

2010-08-19T07:32:00.000-07:00

Currently using my last time use de com ,
just my laptop spoilt , looking at those photos ,
i missed school , i miss my girls , i miss him too .
WHAHAHHA , so many memories .
what to do . hahhaha . fucking hell miss it sia .
hahaha , looking at it , i would laugh ,
remembering how and when i look those picture ,
forcing people to take with me , wow ,
so many things . hahaha , from long hair to short hair .
From a lovely love , to now , ?
hmmmm .. Sigh , things happen , People change .

I miss you deeply , just by looking at those old photos .

2010-08-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hi there ,
didn't actually thought would went out today ,
but still the urge come to my brain .
went to meet Timothy at block one then went to block 7 .
meet up with Junguang , Zai & Lisa .
Blah blah ~~ Junguang went to central to meet Adam with Zai .
then me and Timothy went to block one and slack ,
then walk to 105 behind meet Junguang and the rest ,
Sit there give people disturb & give mosqitoe suck blood ,
Oh man , and people are playing guitar and singing ,
& early today , went home .
Tallk alot of things today , Felt much better :)

Bring it on , Baby .

I love your outlook and attitude with life
sometimes I wish I could be more like you
I've never felt so loved and special
and it's all because of you

2010-08-16T19:39:00.000-07:00

Since i have got nothing to do in the morning ,
let me post some nonsense ba ,
so bored , its like a few hours later till i go out ,
sian. will continue to blog about today , later on at night :)

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I will Love You."

I am back from program & some slacking ,
think tomorrow going to stay at home ba :)
nothing else to do either .
just realise about how to control enermy with attacks ,
felt really happy after playing the game ,
& i don't know why :) maybe because i rant all my sorrows throwing the balls :)
i got no idea :)
my internet is constantly having problems ,
hmmm , problems after problems ..
i need to buck up on my studies already man ,
before its too late . i need to change :)

You're the first thing i think of each morning when i rise.
You're the last thing i think of each night when i close my eyes.
You're in each thought, i have and every breath i take.
My feelings are growing stronger with every move i make.
I want to prove i love you, but thats the hardest part.
If i tell you a secret, could it lead to a new start?
:)

i know you hate me , but you love me more :)

2010-08-16T07:02:00.000-07:00

I got the answer that i want :)
Although you don't say it :)
i can feel it .
if i had a chance to fall in love again ,
i still hope the person would be you :)
i felt at ease after talking :)
i don't know why i keep smiling to myself :) haha !
I just hope all those unhappy things happening to us ,
could just stop , i hope god would stop giving us test .
i just hope god could let us live our life normally ,
for everything to make people happy ,
i am willing to sacrifice.
I would love you till the very end ,
no matter how much you tried ,
its not going to get me down anymore :)
i felt happy actually :)

You can say i am crazy , but i will say , i am crazy over you .
you can say i am stupid , but i will say, i am stupid over love .
you can say whatever you want , but still , i will love you ,
Till the very end :) YES ! :)

2010-08-15T06:28:00.000-07:00

Hello People .
Went to meet Steffi & a guy today ,
Then went to ChyeQ house to see three little pigs sleeping ,
then went downstairs again ,
Then went up again , Felt sad & went down again ,
Then went to meet yinghui :)
then went home :)

Finally you are talking to me ,
i hope i am not disturbing you :)

2010-08-14T06:50:00.000-07:00

I miss you alot .
Everything about you ,
is still floating in my mind , i felt my heart frezzing ,
is sorry the only word you can give ,
you said you say sad , do you know how heartbroken am i ?
Do you know how i wished , i died ,
Do you know how much you are still torturing me ,
i told myself its over , but it isn't i guess ,
you never tell me your problems ,
how do you want me to understand you ,
i can't read your mind .
I miss you alot , i don know what i am doing now too .
i felt so lost , so confused .
Baby , everywhere i go , i felt so blue .

2010-08-13T06:35:00.000-07:00

I guess its time to throw it aways ,

Like you do right , If you can let it go ,

i wonder , why can't i :)

Tomorrow having programme ,

i think i just need a few time :)

Exams are near , i need to buck up already ,

i think i will be leaving you for good ,

if not , i would the one suffering & i am tired already .

i cannot be the one crying always :)

i need a rest , baby .

i need a break , But i believe our love is still strong.

I don't want to carry hopes anymore .

I love you still ,

Always have always will .

Loves.

2010-08-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

Went to Meet Zack and Bing bing awhile at block 7 .
Then went to meet Steffi , Sherrie & Yinghui .
After all of them left , I went to slack with yinghui ,
Roughly Around 8 Went home .
Felt so giddy out of the sudden ,
My house Downstairs was Noisy ,
Going to change number soooooooon :)
Yeahhhhhhhh!
Oh man :) Some irratating people is talking to me .

Before everything end and i say goodbye ,
i wished to say , i wouldn't love you till the end ,
Cherished what you have , because once its gone ,
Its gone forever , and not coming back .
&Cherish the one you love,
cos the one you love may leave for the one they love .

Jia Neng (Y)

2010-08-11T08:40:00.000-07:00

So long since then .
I still remember when you are going back ,
i was bring Sunny everywhere i go ,
Even i sleep in class , Even i went out with my friends ,
You once told me , the eyes look sad ,
maybe because you gone back ,
But now that i look at it , its just a bear :0

Went to school today ,
got approval leave from teacher ,
& left school at 12 ,
Everyone seems to think i am new to class ,
because i chop my hair off ,
Some malay people are fasting , so we are not allowed to eat in class .
But its okays :) goodluck in fasting :)
Went to Toapayoh ,
Meet zack and Cq :) & Yinghui :)
Texting alot people on the way ,
don't even know what i am doing ,
but i promised , i will not let that to control me any further ,
Soon Soon :)
Going to have holiday after this week ,
Gonna study real hard , i just realised i can't catch up ,
Oh man , my beautiful result , cannot be blown like that !
hmmmm . Buck up man !
yeah yeah !
Off to bed now .

Goodnight people ,
Goodluck Zack , CQ , Bing Bing , Yinghui , Valerie , Xueni , Steffi , Jasmine, Charmaine :)
Junguang :) Kai le :) Ming Yu :)
whahahahhahas !

2010-08-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

Went to bed just now ,
& realise , no matter hundred times i turn around ,
i could sleep . my goodness .
insomnia ley ! hahaha ,
Going to school tomorrow ba :)
I think i having body aches ,
hope is not because of that :)
Went to Ktv today , Guys & Girls :D
after that went to Toapayoh , slack around , do some stuff &
meet up with people & home :)

Don't bother asking anything ,

since its over , let it be then :)

Hope you are sincerely smiling from inside out :)

May your the other be better & longer than me :)

Pursue your love and happiness ,

It ain't have anything wrong :)

We are through & done ,

Said and gone :) Cried & over .

Like What the hell ..

immafool.

2010-08-09T07:06:00.000-07:00

Went to meet Venassa today ,
Left my ezlink card over at her place .
Did not manage to meet Darling .
Went to meet C & Val :)
Thanks Alot man :)
Suddenly came to know alot of things .
i think my habit is back & this time , its not easy to kick ,
right girls ? :) hahahahha !
Its been a long long time :)
Tomorrow there is school .
My god , no ezlink card . What to do ...
hmmmm . Should i go or not ?
maybe no ba :) hahhaha!

Dari masa lalu sampai sekarang,
saya baru menyedari betapa palsu orang boleh saya.
& Sekarang tahu kasih anda telah bagi saya bukan apa-apa,
jika tujuan anda adalah untuk menyakiti saya,
saya di sini untuk memberitahu anda, anda telah gagal.
I tidak akan mempercayai anda lagi, saya tidak pernah ingin anda dipaparkan dalam seluruh hidup saya lagi. Hari ini adalah hari istimewa saya, dulu, tapi sekarang tidak lagi hari ini. saya akan mencintaimu lagi, selepas. bahagia mempermainkan orang &
perasaan & saya percaya karma akan ganda kembali kepada anda:)

Your love was a lie , like a heartbreak lullaby

2010-08-08T07:09:00.000-07:00

Went to meet Darling today .
Slack the whole day luh :)
went to meet my son awhile too , then went back to Darling's house again .
Then Sayang came . :D
Then went Pasamalam then Home :)

So , i am the only one feeling my own happiness :)
All along it has been me , One sided love :)
I wouldn't regret anymore .
From the start , it was all lie ,
Isn't it , Thanks for waking me up from this pathetic dream .
I wouldn't miss you , like how i used to .
& i promise , I wouldn't appear infront of you or stand in your way ,
Anymore .

2010-08-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

Hi People ,
Up there Got a few Photos are Very Long ago ,
& some are Just taken today :)
Went to Meet Sweeeeetheart today ,
Got my small tail Cut off ,
But still , not too bad lars :D
Went to Vanessa 's house awhile ,
Went to Pasamalam again , Bought food .
Sit at block 1 Talk about some TOPICS ,
& then headed to CQ House & slack .
Let the photos do the rest of the talking :)
Love ya . ^^

2010-08-06T18:57:00.000-07:00

Gonna cut my hair supper short Tomorrow .
Hope i wouldn't regret it ,
i just wanna change my hairstyle .
But i hope Everything turns out to be allright :)

Went to school for a bloodly concert ,
so lame luh , i reach there around 9.45 ,
end at 10.30 . like Wtf ??
Went to indoor stadium to see floor ball game ,
went off with Geraldine To take train , Went home .
& Went out to meet zack&CO .
Everybody was sleeping , Like , Somebody promised me ,
to go pasamalam with me , End up _!_
Waolao eh . .____..
Instead went there with Liping , BingBing , AhHwee & Yinghui.
Eat and finish , went home at 8.20 :)

I hope you wouldn't be the one lying ,
Oh man , i hate this bloodly feeling to pineapple core can .
Waolao eh , Tell me straight on my face luh ,
its not like i couldn't take it ,
Since it happened once before .
Stop playing hide and seek luh .
God Damm It .

♥